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[Bumblebee]

...been about two hours back. Find myself In the middle of gendery-ish but totally respectful conversation. Oh, b12, sweet b12....

We're being nice because we know Tiruin would frickin' kill us if we weren't.

Good thing Tiruin is here. Hug death is a... a... cute option?
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Yes, the tree line (Actually seashore line, but ok)
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Aaaaargh, my internet is so slow, can't answer all the things! (Finally something that belongs In the sad thread. (We have no rage threadd, right?))

[TD1]

...been about two hours back. Find myself In the middle of gendery-ish but totally respectful conversation. Oh, b12, sweet b12....

We're being nice because we know Tiruin would frickin' kill us if we weren't.

I am not even really nice though (I'm not saying that I have anything against anyone participating in this conversation, or at least I don't remember having it, but I guess people could get offended by things I say and take them as me being angry), I just enjoy arguing with people over internet (my favourite thing to do when I'm too sick to do anything more productive) so much that at this point I know that there are some things that quickly cause the argument to... end. And I'm already on 2/3 warnings, though for completly unrelated reason.
You could say that I am a Shitstorm Hunter.

I think "nice" doesn't mean airy fairy, but rather implies reasonableness. An internet argument is only nice when both sides are willing to converse rather than textually yell invective at each other.

[TheBiggerFish]

...been about two hours back. Find myself In the middle of gendery-ish but totally respectful conversation. Oh, b12, sweet b12....

We're being nice because we know Tiruin would frickin' kill us if we weren't.

Good thing Tiruin is here. Hug death is a... a... cute option?
________

Yes, the tree line (Actually seashore line, but ok)
________

Aaaaargh, my internet is so slow, can't answer all the things! (Finally something that belongs In the sad thread. (We have no rage threadd, right?))

We had one, before I got here.  It has looooong since been locked.

[Tack]

Hit a wall at work and accidentally fell asleep on the couch.
Not only did i massively jeapordise the safety of the people I'm supposed to be keeping after, but I also did some strange and lasting damage to my lower back.

My physical pain is outweighing my moral pain, but still.

[Avis-Mergulus]

(We have no rage threadd, right?))

We had several, actually. They all used to get locked up on the reg, and the last one got nuked after a bunch of people got into a huge shitflinging fight over one flamebait topic or the other. After that, the Toad had decreed that there would be no more rage threads.

[Shadowlord]

I want nothing more than to just cry about it, but I actually cannot, I am so thoroughly indoctrinated into my masculinity that I cannot even conceive of acting outside of it.

Relatedly:

I listened to Leonard Cohen's song 'You Want It Darker' last night and found myself crying uncontrollably.

I've never listened to Leonard Cohen before.

[chaotic skies]

Alright. I've had a sleep, I've taken a break and chilled out for a little bit. So I'm just gonna rant now. Feel free to ignore. I'll probably remove this anyway.

Spoiler: Ranting, ho! (click to show/hide)

 Alright so basically the past few weeks have been hell. One of my best friends, if not my best friends (we understand each other really well and she's awesome) is ignoring me now. I had asked her out, but she was afraid I lied to her and said no, she had a crush on someone else. So, being the bumbling idiot I am, I let it go and moved on. A few weeks later, I asked out one of my other friends. We dated for about two weeks, and in that time I realized I might have done the whole thing as a way to get closer to someone else. So I broke up with him. And, truly earning my label as bumbling idiot, I asked her out the next day. She said no. Okay. I was then told if I had waited on. FUCKING. Day. She would have said yes. So a week passes, we hang out, I ask again. She says she's not sure. I tell her I'll wait a week, but then I would like an answer. Yesterday, she told me no. I told myself it would happen, I said I could deal with it when it did, but...I'm not sure. I don't want to sound cheesy and stupid, so I'll just put it bluntly: I was in love with her. I woke up thinking about her, I fell asleep thinking about her. One of the main reasons I got up in the morning was to see her. On top of this, one of my other friends recently tried to commit suicide, was almost raped (again) by her brother, and has admitted repeatedly to having a crush on me. At this point I don't know what to do, and I just want it to all be over. I don't have any real reason to get up in the morning. Most if not all of my friends are or will be angry at me. My two best friends don't talk to me anymore. My mom has never seemed to really care about me or my brother, only using us as a way to get back at my dad. I can't sleep well anymore. I can't cry. I'm losing most of the emotional responses I used to have. I rarely smile. I'm stuck on the idea of death, and what I'll do when I die more and more. And I feel like I'm just a spectator in my own mind, and I can't stop it anymore. I don't care I guess. I have nothing to live for. All the promises I make get broken anyway; just because I promised my best friend I'll always be there for her doesn't mean I can be. Or I'll even be alive to be there for her for much longer. At this point the only reason I do anything is to waste time until I inevitably die or something happens. I'm really worried about the girl who rejected me, because she's been talking about committing suicide more and more. I can tell every time I see her that she's depressed. I want to help her, but she doesn't want me or need me. She always pushes me away. I should have known...I should have known no body wants me. I'm useless, and broken. No one wants garbage.

Yep, probably gonna delete it. Either way, helped to get that out of my head, I guess.

[martinuzz]

My physical pain is outweighing my moral pain, but still.

Your boss asked me to tell you 'that'll change once we have a chat tomorrow'

[ChairmanPoo]

...been about two hours back. Find myself In the middle of gendery-ish but totally respectful conversation. Oh, b12, sweet b12....

We're being nice because we know Tiruin would frickin' kill us if we weren't.

. Hug death is a... a... cute option?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZDvtqaGW54

[Shadowlord]

Alright. I've had a sleep, I've taken a break and chilled out for a little bit. So I'm just gonna rant now. Feel free to ignore. I'll probably remove this anyway.

It kind of sounds like you're mirroring each other, and neither of you thinks you're worthy of each other...

... but don't ask me what the solution is, unless you two can be honest with each other about what you think each other thinks and why you did the things you did (e.g. you thought she wasn't interested, she didn't give you an answer, but you were still in love) and what you feel.

And if she isn't interested, loving someone doesn't preclude being friends instead of anything more. It just means you care about them more.

[BlackHeartKabal]

...been about two hours back. Find myself In the middle of gendery-ish but totally respectful conversation. Oh, b12, sweet b12....

We're being nice because we know Tiruin would frickin' kill us if we weren't.

I'm not sure about you but if Tiruin's prepped to murder someone, I'm not even going to ask why.

[Shadowlord]

Can I add a fifth kind of people? People who lie constantly to everyone and think it won't come back on them. (I'm also not talking about anyone on these forums)

It sounds like you need to know better people (IRL if that's what you need) and less terrible people, but if some of them are family I can see that not being easy.

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugs Caroline*

I wish I could do more ;-;

[smirk]

I want nothing more than to just cry about it, but I actually cannot, I am so thoroughly indoctrinated into my masculinity that I cannot even conceive of acting outside of it.

Relatedly:

I listened to Leonard Cohen's song 'You Want It Darker' last night and found myself crying uncontrollably.

I've never listened to Leonard Cohen before.

He's a good one for that, is Cohen.

Was Cohen.

[Yoink]

Fuck off, politics.
The whole thing was funny for a while, now it's getting tired.


Re: Leonard Cohen, unfortunately I mainly remember him from some long car trips with my dad back in the day where I was just about bored to tears by Cohen and couldn't wait to switch to something better. But he sang Hallelujah, apparently? I've probably heard his version before. I might give a listen to it now to check...

...

...Good Lord. He is the real deal, that's for sure.
It wasn't even the original recorded version that I listened to, but the spoken parts of the song were as powerful as ever. Wow, that gave me chills. I only wish we'd listened to more Hallelujah on those old car trips, I might have had a better opinion of the man before now.

Thunder cracking and the lights flickering at the songs climax(es) probably helped, too, I guess. Storm is definitely coming.