Forum games are meant to be fun.
Don't feel obligated. If it's not fun, don't force it, please. I'm in both games and I love them dearly but they should be fun for the GM. You're not letting me down.
If the game's making you feel bad, I don't think I like that. I want you to enjoy the things you create, I don't want you to think of them as a burden. We can wait. We have, and will. It's not a problem. We don't blame you for it.
As for feeling bad about feeling bad? I felt sad Friday because I forgot my lunch at home and had to go get it instead of hanging out with friends. It was a bummer for my whole day. Sure there's people who don't have lunch. I still felt sad. It's okay to feel sad about things, even silly things, because that's how us people work. Don't be ashamed to feel sad about the little things. Or the big things. Or the things that aren't necessarily big things but aren't small things. If it's a sad thing it's okay to feel sad.
This. Don't force it if you don't feel it.
>Feel bad about bailing as GM in the Dark Heresy game.
>Come to sad thread for unrelated reasons.
>See this, feel a bit better.
Us still in the game are plenty fine with that too.
You'll be happy to know that I've caused most of the party to hate me, beyond the one reasonable Guardsman and the other feral world psyker.
Thanks, guys. It means a lot.
I think one of the reasons I've been feeling bad lately is because my body has been fighting an illness, and I just learned of it today now that it's hit hard, and I feel terrible. So I haven't been able to think straight through things properly, and it was all piling up on me for a while.
And I'm sorry about your lunch, Pufferfish, I know what it's like to have to miss out on things because of things like that, and it's not fun, and I know that if you told most people about how it made you feel they would say it's silly, but it still hurts you. Just know that you're not alone.
And I'm glad I could make you feel a bit better about it, Hanslanda. The game's going really fun with HFS in command, and I really enjoyed reading the parts where you were running it.
And I've got your back, Xantalos. I wouldn't be surprised if the whole party makes a two-way split by the time our mission is up.