I think I should've clarified better
This was before we really had interest in each other. When I brought it up to her about it when we started dating due to her asking about things she's said that weren't nice or just rude (she's said quite a few things I bottled up because when she said them, she was having mood swings), she moreso apologized for hurting me, not really taking back he statement.
But I get what you mean. She's already said things to clearly push me away, despite us being in the same group of friends and trying to be civil with one another. Things such as she never wants to marry, things like that.
I kind of figured she wasn't in for the long haul due to her saying things while we were dating like "I want to look good for other guys because that's all they see in me" and such. That one stung more than any of them, and she sort of saved it by saying I was included in there.
In hindsight, it wasn't a good relationship. I put as much into it as I possibly could and she wouldn't really put much effort into it. Her logic for breaking up was involving arguments between couples from a comedian who wasn't even being serious about it because I asked her how her day was and she snapped, which lead to me getting angry and asking her what she expected me to say to her anymore since she keeps getting upset at every topic I bring up (her favorite video games, D&D, school, work, etc). What's most embarrassing was I was in a depressive mourning over her from July until New Years (I fell hard for her despite it all), only for me to lose all interest after the rose tinted glasses came off and I saw how she really is...
I know her problems are the same as mine were prior to rehab, and she's said she's wanted to get help for that, but she got offended when I reccomended places to her, so I can't really feel pity when she refuses help but wants it... My only hope for her is she does suck it up and seeks some counselling. A friend asked me if she did that and did a complete rework of her life, if I would take her back. At the time, I said yes. Now? I don't think so.
I still care about her, but it's moreso because she's still a friend and part of my group.
EDIT:
Should also mention that one thing that also kind of scarred me is she brought up the fact I'm still a virgin, while we were dating, and proceeded to make a really mean joke about it, and when I brought that up (as she said I should when she says things that hurt) she berated me about it and didn't apologize. Didn't help my fear of women any... And this is a reason why I wish I could've been bi or gay, but sadly, whatever powers of the universe there are decided I will only like women