Gosh, that's horrible. I know i have my share of things that will stay with me till the end of my days, but nothing like that. I hope you do find the last nooks and crannies to scour the little shit out of, and if nothing else, even if you can't truly win, you can still beat it down to the size of an imp that you can just stomp on whenever it rears its ugly head. I hope. :v
As for my sad of today, i had a bad night. Went to bed at 3, fell asleep somewhere after 5:30. I just COULD NOT SLEEP, even though i was plenty tired. To compound things, i was
jumpscared by my own brain in the early end of this stint, and it was surprisingly nasty. Long story short because this isn't the dream thread, i was browsing art and stuff, happened upon a face while scrolling down that can best be described as Zalgo^2, and that just fucking invades every other image present with a rather startling noise*. That scared the shit out of me. Past that, my brain basically looped for the next 2-3 hours, as if i had a fever, and i was scared of letting it proceed every goddamn time because it might also repeat the scare.
Enter today, after a comparatively miniscule amount of sleep. I am not feeling well. Obviously tired, but also somewhat restless at the same time, my belly unusually cranky, and i feel like my head just hasn't emptied overnight, like it's overloaded. I'm just glad i'm not supposed to be roleplaying today, i couldn't manage that right now. >.>
* if you're feeling masochistic,
0:16 in this vid, but fair warning, this thing is overall
scary as hell and i wouldn't recommend listening if you're of a nervous disposition