Guys I think Gamedragon gets the idea the 30th time.
That's uncertain. The thing with these things is when one's actions--considering coping mechanisms, may become negative and then lead into maladaptive behavior.
Gamedragon, please listen--the feelings of terror that are unexplainable in talking to your parents or mental health professional are not reasonable or logical to follow to consider NOT TELLING ANYONE. Consider that if one won't be telling their parents, who are in a position to aid--or otherwise physically, this can then apply to basically anyone (or at least, personally, given the culture here being family-centric). If you have the power to write it down here, please address and go for people there.
This is imperative if you consider your thoughts to be literally as they are, because they aren't, if they begin advocating self-harm. One thing with these thoughts
are that they can be intrusive ones.One of the teachers noticed that I haven't been acting myself for the past month or so so I can't be hiding it that well
Do not hide it. Seek aid. There is no shame or dishonor in presenting that you need help, there is nothing wrong with letting others know what you're going through in a way for mutual communication to occur; that is the path of
strength because it overcomes the
impressionism that hinders a person, personally. That's where you work with yourself first and foremost, in your thoughts and mind.
Point being, there are a lot of indicators within your posts that speak of anxiety, but also of a fear of talking about it. That won't help you; consider those who did go for help, assess think about these things before even concluding that they're something to act upon.
Especially if it's not based on empirical knowledge. Please don't delve further in negative thinking. Speak to friends about it. But in the end, get help for what you're going through. Avoidance behavior (ie I won't tell anyone and I guess my actions justify the means to an end) along with coping behaviors in that sense will hurt more than help.
Counsellors are a lucky dip and it sucks. My counsellor was a bit too soft for my liking, although in hindsight I probably looked for any excuse to avoid her.
Still, it is a very good thing to have someone you can blah all this stuff out to in person, especially in secret.
One lol' bit of advice- avoid discussing the self-harm until you've seen them enough to be super comfortable and candid. They're allowed to break confidentiality if you're a danger to yourself, so I'd suggest only letting the remaining cats from the bag once you're sure they're on your side (and don't trust your first instinct with that either. Some really are shit and Will tell parents, although the rest are ok).
Incomplete and possibly misunderstood statement there.
Please do note that these things have a process in definite situations; they're allowed to break confidentiality if you present a danger to your own self-preservation due to actions undergoing that pattern, in which a pattern is generally a repetitive behavior.
Being very general with these things in a non-specific manner creates impressions that may hinder more than help because of how the idea is presented, worded, and given as suggestions. Beware making suggestions like that without noting the consequences of such a suggestion--especially
very general ones without follow-up knowledge. (because these have the danger of leaving the person half-full, otherwise at a loss of information due to only having incomplete information). Even if the person considers self-harm, there's the gray zone in which confidentiality is still maintained. It's not something to discuss in this situation because the priority is to first seek and continue along with aid.