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[Gunner-Chan]

Shitty situations aren't shitty forever, is the moral here.

Actually, in my experience so far life loves to repeat itself for me. So likely as soon as I get over this life is going to take another huge shit on me.

Right up until I die or give up I'm sure.

[Tiruin]

Quickpost 

Shitty situations aren't shitty forever, is the moral here.

First is this note here.
Next, is the note of keeping those shitty situations in mind--as if others -meant- to do that.
Usually, it may seem that way, but when you take the other person's perspective, it's usually a collateral effect than their intent.
But what is important is that we, within these shitty situations, do not torture ourselves with the 'what ifs' in seeking the answers to 'why {other person} did so', especially if those what ifs continue to predict the present pain we're in, because more often than not--it just exacerbates our perspective of our shitty situation.

Without knowledge of your situation, I poke at what exists with you who alleviate the shitty situation. Owlga is an awesome person. Information is also an awesome thing (ie Information about what you're feeling//Personally describing your situation to yourself, from a third-party's eye...). Other people who are helping--let them help, too!

But don't keep dwelling on probability, GC. Unless there is an essence of exactness...or, y'know, certainty, then dwelling on these ideas (especially if they're not good for your health) will mostly lead to fruitless endeavors. If things keep repeating, then analyze the process--what exactly is happening. Describe or express yourself to those you trust, and those you know who are sincerely going to help you.
_{Which is the story of my life before I was 17ish.}

[Gunner-Chan]

It's just all so frustrating.

He apparently cares, but I'm stil just having to deal with him apparently deciding I'm not worth talking to. I'm obviously hurting so bad because of that, where's the fucking care? If I cared about someone I'd never do anything even remotely like this to someone. No matter if my sister or the cops or the president or fucking GOD wanted me to.

It's nonsense. That's not care, that's insanity!

And it's driving ME insane!

[Spehss _]

Shitty situations aren't shitty forever, is the moral here.

Actually, in my experience so far life loves to repeat itself for me. So likely as soon as I get over this life is going to take another huge shit on me.

Right up until I die or give up I'm sure.

If you give up or die, there is exactly 0% chance of your shitty situation improving. If you don't give up and/or keep living, there's at least the potential possibility of your life not being shitty all the time.

[Aqizzar]

He apparently cares, but I'm stil just having to deal with him apparently deciding I'm not worth talking to. I'm obviously hurting so bad because of that, where's the fucking care?

I know this is going to sound obvious but, have you considered not giving a damn about what he thinks of you?  I think every single person who's been around here long enough to know who you are would agree, you of all people don't need to prove yourself to anyone.

[Gunner-Chan]

Well apparently I do and I'm not even being given a chance to.

And no I'm not going to just not fucking care, that's awful.

[Descan]

It's just all so frustrating.

He apparently cares, but I'm stil just having to deal with him apparently deciding I'm not worth talking to. I'm obviously hurting so bad because of that, where's the fucking care? If I cared about someone I'd never do anything even remotely like this to someone. No matter if my sister or the cops or the president or fucking GOD wanted me to.

It's nonsense. That's not care, that's insanity!

And it's driving ME insane!

Yeah. That is basically bugnuts. I don't really know why that would make sense to anyone in any state of mind?

[SalmonGod]

I don't know, both, either or. I don't really know.

I'm tired of not having any control of my life whatsoever. Everything that's important to me goes away, without fail. Even the things I have right now, I know because of my past experiences they're temporary.

I don't see the point in continuing to torture myself.

I know it probably doesn't seem helpful to point out right now, but... everything is temporary. 

Not just in some existential "everyone dies eventually and the universe will suffer heat death" exercise in triteness.  I mean life is constant change.  People come and go.  Sometimes it's horrible, and sometimes it's wonderful.  You can't have one without the other.  The alternative is stagnation.

I was really attached to someone who broke off contact with me suddenly and without warning.  It screwed with me badly.  I went through a long phase afterwards where my thought patterns were pretty broken and I didn't care much about myself.  It took me 2-3 years, but I got over it.  Looking back on it now, I can't imagine how crazy my attachment must have seemed to her.  Plenty of other people I cared about have since come and gone from my life.  Some hurt more than others. 

But everyone has their own path to follow.  Relationships, for good or ill, are just the event of two paths crossing and perhaps aligning for a while.  Nothing more.  Not that we shouldn't value them, because they enrich us, the same way an arc or plot point enriches a story.  Because that's what life is, right?  Our existence is only in a given moment within a massive procedurally generated mess of interactions, and our lives are the story we write in our heads about the sequence and nature of those interactions we've taken part in.  As romantic as the notion may be, no two are going to be written the same.  It just sucks when we can't understand why another diverges from our own.  Makes it hard to write into that narrative, right?

[Tiruin]

@GC: It could be insanity, aye ._. But that's one way of seeing it.
Consider that he may also have problems himself in that regard (as in...basically anyone who does care, would open contact--in a general case). This doesn't mean that he doesn't really super not care...per se, but just send him a PM (or ask someone to send him a PM in case you were put on an ignore list? Unsure how that thing works).
Then we stop torturing ourselves about thinking why there's no response :/
Because there's the time wherein thought enters. He may need time to think about this too [and many other notes on how interaction occurs]. Leave the note that you're open to communication if or if not he wants, as in leave yourself open to them if the situation doesn't seem like you advancing towards them = the better thing.

In the meantime, busy yourself with people around you who do care :O There's a time for him to respond--and intervening assumptions aside, just leave the door open, with a welcome sign (in analogy) and he will enter when he wants.
Poking generally anyway.

Spoiler: I could probably enter my own story here, to poke at the variability of the situation instead of an 'They care/not care? but it isn't showing?' (click to show/hide)

There could be the note of anxiety or the fear of [bad things] in the way. Or on how one judges the other. There are many ways to consider this...rather than the binary 'Do you care? :/'
Like how -long- it took me to open up to people -who pretty much obviously care-, but didn't, because of one single thing that they said, that I already saw that could be easily misinterpreted as something bad.

Or on another occasion, when me and my nephew fought and we got all :I with silence for months...despite me wanting to talk to him and all. When we met up and made up, we looked over and discussed what just happened and there were apparently a ton of assumptions in between that causes...an aversion to communication. It's like a cause-effect thing.

But that's a general note for me anyway _{who would like to help} ._.
But rather than giving apathy back to him (it doesn't...like, help a lot. Sure, it may disassociate your 'care' to him but...that doesn't help in general, from much personal experience), just leave an open note for him is all I'm saying, and then continue on like that.
...That's actually like being apathetic without being literally apathetic. I think. Like, you know you're open to conversation--so instead of advancing on them (who may be reluctant), you leave them a note like "I'm sorry for the things that got in the way--so let's begin anew; whenever you wish to speak to me again, I'm open" and then the choice is now theirs while in the meantime, you busy yourself with people who presently are with you who do care.

But that's just me anyway. I do hope this clears up though.

Edit: SalmonGod has a point ._. Existentialism is a nice thing, and no matter who we are, we all have control over our lives in full.

[Owlga]

I've been doing my best to help her through this shit and as far as I know, the only way Ill ever get everything calmed down for her is fixing this shit myself.

Only no one will let me. One day she might stop caring about assholes that don't give a shit about her. But I don't think that time is anytime soon at this rate.

[MaximumZero]

Spoiler (click to show/hide)

Very minor sad, spoilered for ignoring purposes but I still need to vent a little.

My elementary school is slated to be shut down. That makes both my elementary and my junior high (that got shut down long ago,) and three employers (an auto parts factory that the roof caved in on and permanently went on hiatus, a sports bar, and RadioShack,) that are no more except as a part of my past.

Still haven't heard from the potential new job and it's tearing me apart inside. My car still won't start and I can't fix it (I'm not strong enough to remove a machine-fitted bolt, and I don't have access to the tools I need,) or afford to have it fixed, and I'm driving my wife's car which now has a seriously cracked windshield that we can't afford to replace. To top it all off, my in-laws will not be moving immediately, which means we'll be stuck with them in their house for at least a couple weeks, until they move out and take all their craziness with them. They're nice, generous people but I don't want to be around them for any longer than I have to for various reasons. Not to mention the five dogs that I largely dislike and the dementia patient grandma that comes with the package. *sigh* I did not sign up for this. Every single time I move in with a girl's parents (and this has happened multiple times, and is happening again no matter how much I protest,) our relationship blows up and I wind up on the street, or back with my parents.

Everything I touch goes to hell. I'm the worst kind of reverse midas.

[Yoink]

Sorry to hear that, MZ.
I was pretty sad to hear that (one of) my primary school(s) closed down, it was a really good school and it seemed a shame that I moved away.


My sad: I bought chocolate today yesterday and now I'm comfort eating.
Also it's past midnight and I was trying to get my sleeping pattern back on track. WELP guess I'll just stay up forever.
I feel so low right now. Everything is upsetting me. I think I had a bad day.

[penguinofhonor]

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[GiglameshDespair]

Got a rejection from  job I applied to today.
Well, at least they replied, I guess.

[Arx]

Sigh. Slept nine hours last night, still feel terrible now. Hope I'm not getting sick.

Oh yeah, and I have four-frackin'-teen weeks of exams coming up. Ninety-eight days, more than three months.