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[ChairmanPoo]

I've been travelling nonstop to and forth during the last three days. I'm broken.

[Helgoland]

Everyone has some justification in their head behind what they do. I remember a lecture from last year (the prof is a Holocaust survivor) on how evil is actually very banal. Like, the worst of it comes from "just following orders," "it's standard procedure," "the chart says do this, don't worry about those people," and such things. I'm probably mangling it considerably, groggy as I am...

It's a Hannah Arendt thing: The Banality of Evil.

[Yoink]

It's OK. It's not like my heart was already leaking tears after the latest XKCD.

One instance of racism as far as I'm aware, but it's from 4chan, so what do you expect?

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Help why is my face leaking. ;_;

[TD1]

Removing the tear ducts would make it worse. Tears come from...eh...lammella glands (something like that. Some form of gland.) above your eyes, not below. The tear ducts act as drainage and dump the tears into the back of your throat. When there are more tears than tear-ducts can cope with, we cry.

[Yoink]

I think you're overcomplicating things a little. It's 7AM and I am sad.

[Arx]

* Arx brandishes scalpel

I can expand your tear ducts if you like!

[Truean]

I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing.

I tried to do a ton of pro bono work; I got screwed.
I tred to give people ways out of bad behavior.
I tried to put forth simplified, well supported logical arguments....

I try to be constructive and I think I like game art:


It just, I don't know. I feel like no matter what I do, I piss somebody off. I don't get it.

[Itnetlolor]

Ever try explaining what context is to someone, only to have them not understand it at all, and immediately afterwards, they explain the same exact thing to you in return (pretty much a carbon-copy of what was said, and trying to educate you on what context is); and you respond that that was exactly what you said/explained a moment ago, and they still don't get it somehow, despite the fact they said it a moment ago?

Apparently, no matter who I talk to face to face, every conversation I have ends up like this (even with siblings; and yes, to even observe it more directly, and try and explain such things to them (and to also take notes, myself); context was the main subject being discussed). Apparently when I speak English, I'm not speaking English, and this happens all the time.

I kinda wish I was psychic, so I can observe how others hear and see me. It's kinda like, the way I see myself is not the same way others see me. I can be carrying myself with confidence, although I spent a good few hours wearing myself down doing yard work or something, and everyone else instead sees a defeated person just wanting to end the day, because they're a lazy sack of crap; ignoring the fact that the yard looks magnitudes better, all because of the "defeated lazy sack of crap".

I wonder if my existence has a translation bug with it or something. Because even when I'm a benevolent person, I'm an asshole. I'd like that to be reserved for when I'm a parent, thank you very much; and the perception being from my own kids.

[Truean]

Yes, I can absolutely relate to this. Entirely and completely.

[Bauglir]

Life seems too painful. Just feels like there's nothing here for me, at all. There never was.

Then something for you must be built! Carve some beauty out of the cosmos! Do awesome things, befriend awesome people, make awesome stuff. The past is an eternal shithole, sure, but the future is all manner of crazy things, and the present is the world's most convoluted bridge from one to the other.

Now, finding the motivation to do all that, I dunno about. That's a stumper. And the how, who knows? Whatever you need, you need. I think figuring it out is something you can do, though.

I've been travelling nonstop to and forth during the last three days. I'm broken.

Is there any end in sight? That is a lot of travel, and exhausting. I hope you're able to get some rest soon.

Yes, communication is hard. People're... really bad at being consistent in what they say, and what they do. I, myself, am a reclusive shut-in despite an almost comical amount of rambling about experiencing the world. Still, it takes a special kind of blindness to pull off what you've described, but it's definitely a thing I've encountered. Shit sucks, yo. May awareness be a more common thing in coming years.

[ChairmanPoo]

Is there any end in sight? That is a lot of travel, and exhausting. I hope you're able to get some rest soon.

Yeah, this week I dont have any more stuff... I think. Probably. So relative-rest...

It was a big opportunity. Particularily the thursday-friday one. But whoah.

[Orange Wizard]

yay

stress-induced illness

* Orange Wizard groggily waves his arms.

at least i'm alive

[TD1]

Why is everybody getting sick? My school is coming down with illness.

It's Spring, dammit! Isn't it meant to be healthier?!?!

[Truean]

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 (not because my mother first negligently left me at the side of some water and then swam off so I nearly drowned, and then repeatedly forced my face in a bowl of water on the kitchen floor "so that I would learn not to be scared." She says it was gently; I have no idea if it was gently or not, only that I was screaming and crying and ready to give up on living, and did not feel I had a choice). All children are afraid of their parents...

Child. Abuse.

[Orange Wizard]

it's sodding winter you northern hemisphereian heretic