Today, I was upset over something stupid.
The thing was that I went back to work today (I've had the past couple days off work because I've been feeling terrible, and had to go to the doctor.) and as usual, work made me annoyed.
...But, I wasn't angry.
Normally work makes me really mad, because of all the little things that goes on during it, and those same things were happening today, but, I wasn't getting mad over them today.
I think it has something to do with my new medication. It's been helping with the pain (quite a lot, actually), but one of the side-effects is that it makes me really dizzy (technically, I'm not supposed to drive while taking it) and it also seems to be affecting my mood.
I just... don't really care. I feel apathetic. There were things that would have made me mad, but I didn't feel mad. And I started to think, "Is this the medicine doing this?"
I should have been happy about it, being able to get through work without getting mad, but I felt... uncomfortable about it.
I don't like my emotions being controlled, or altered. Even if it's for the better, I want to feel like I'm being me, and I don't feel that way.
I should be ok with it, but I'm not. It makes me upset that it's keeping me from getting upset, which only upsets me more, but I don't feel upset. It's making me feel like I'm going crazy. And I'm super dizzy and don't feel like doing anything.
I don't know, pretty stupid sad for today, but I still wanted to vent.