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[timferius]

Grandfather died last night. I guess it was probably for the best, as his memory was going in the past few months and he had trouble breathing. I just wish I got to see him before.

I know the pain, my grandmother passed last summer the same way. I couldn't bring myself to visit her for 5-6 months before she passed because it was too hard to see her so far gone. Her mind jumped around times, sometimes I was still a kid to her, sometimes I wasn't even born. She was stubborn though, so she'd play it off like she really knew, but you could see the confusion in her eyes The best to you and yours.

[McDonald]

Got mild magma sprays and stomach pain :/

[Tawa]

RIP grandAlev.

I remember the last time a relative I knew well died. I feel you.

[King Kravoka]

RIP to him.

[ggamer]

If you've not quite experienced with it, you're probably not in a position to state if it's overrated or not...

Or I've dated plenty and i'm sick of it, GD >.>

[JoshuaFH]

I'm just in one of those moods where it feels like everything in the world strives to remind me of how much a pathetic failure I am.

I'm still struggling with what to do about my therapy situation. I'm badly inclined to wash my hands of it completely, it seems the most sensible thing to do, all the evidence points towards that, but still I feel crushed and torn up inside, and I imagine a fictional person trying to talk me through it, possibly a Bay12'er or someone else but always alike and always safe in a sense of smug intellectual & experiential superiority over me, reminding me "Hey, maybe you should go to therapy." and I try to explain why that's not possible, that it's just not possible. I feel a little bit more cornered every time this thought comes up, cornered by this fictional person, and my anxiety mounts a bit more.

The only thing I can do is go to sleep for right now. Just try to wash my hands of everything, but as I remind myself daily, I'd rather let my hands be burned by a hot coal than risk losing it by letting it go. Good night for now.

[Helgoland]

Condolences, Alev. May he rest in peace, for the living value their brains.

All of my roomates now know I practically live on this board.
I'm starting to get paranoid about whether or not they're lurking here and reading me gripe about them.
(to my credit, nothing I gripe about, I haven't already griped about to them in person. I'm honest, if a jerk)

That's why I'm so paranoid about meatspace people finding out about my Bay12 activities - I got funky topics IRL as well (it's practically become memetic among my friends - I once suggested during lunch that we should find a woman so that a (present, and female) friend could lick her finger and we could search for Y chromosomes in the resulting sample to find out whether she (the acquaintance) was a dude), but I'm fairly sure I've posted some stuff over time that's crass even for my standards.

[Tiruin]

My girlfriend is being sad and suicidal and won't talk to me. I tried calling her but her phone is off. I want to to drive over there to try and help, but that will just make things worse with her mom.

Her mom sucks. End of story.
And she can't have her debut because her mom doesn't think it's worth the effort.

Those things mean a lot. Its a familial event--not just for the individual.
Though I'd nudge to get to straight details on this, Kal. Also support her like you've always did--she needs it; its mutual.

Edit: To assuage any misinterpretation--the withholding of a debut could also be in financial reasons as well as many other reasons by which its ok, so...that's why I nudged to delve into the details as far as she's comfortable with on that matter, as well as the note on why she's feeling bad. Friend support is initial and best support before any other support.

[GiglameshDespair]

If you've not quite experienced with it, you're probably not in a position to state if it's overrated or not...

Or I've dated plenty and i'm sick of it, GD >.>

I was responding to this:

Ya! Dating is overrated, that's why I've never done it. c: I'm going to die alone. hopefully.

[Cptn Kaladin Anrizlokum]

Those things mean a lot. Its a familial event--not just for the individual.
Though I'd nudge to get to straight details on this, Kal. Also support her like you've always did--she needs it; its mutual.

Edit: To assuage any misinterpretation--the withholding of a debut could also be in financial reasons as well as many other reasons by which its ok, so...that's why I nudged to delve into the details as far as she's comfortable with on that matter, as well as the note on why she's feeling bad. Friend support is initial and best support before any other support.

Erm... I talked with her about it already. It's mostly because her mom doesn't want to do it. There are a few other reasons, but nothing that would make it impossible, or even much more difficult, to do.

[Truean]

Depression?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1T5uMeYv9Q

This guy.

FYI "Aaron Beck" is the father of cognitive psychology.

[Tawa]

Why am I such a terrible person?

Don't lie to yourself. You're a great person!

[Sirus]

Why am I such a terrible person?

You're not.

[Orange Wizard]

Can confirm. Caroline is awesome.

[Bauglir]

Why am I such a terrible person?

I cannot answer that question, because its premises are flawed.