Pasha stared out the window, resting his elbows on the sill. I don't... know enough about the situation here in Ligoria to make a fair judgment. But it seems wrong to me to just kill Laythe like this. In a way it's partially my fault... I was her original betrothed, after all, and it was my family name that drove her crazy in the first place. Who knows. Maybe things wouldn't be like this now if I had done my duty to my father and married her, even if that meant forcing her to be my bride. But I would merely be a puppet king for Dysevik if I had done that... damn it. It just doesn't seem like there's any way to win.
He sighed heavily and took a flower out of the nearby vase, slowly pulling its petals off and letting the wind take them. In another room, Tala was writing a letter, and he was giving her the privacy to do that. I wish I could go to Laythe, tell her right now that she needs to run... but there's no telling what she would do. Execute me for telling her about the plot? Execute Tala for agreeing to it? At the very least my telling her about it would result in open civil war and a lot of people would die. Maybe it's better if I just leave things alone. One woman dies, but a lot of people live. It sounds fair... but it still feels like this is all my fault.
Pasha buried his face in his hands, pressing his palms against his forehead. This shouldn't be any of my business. But... I promised Laythe I would stand beside her. What the hell do I do? It all boils down to standing by and letting it happen, and hating myself forever for breaking a promise and letting her die, or I interfere and get myself killed and probably still don't manage to save her. Even if I do save her, what then? Is it just a matter of time until she snaps and kills me or Tala? Or if I interfere and live, but don't save her, Vandire and Thunderblade will probably have me exiled or executed, and I can't do that to Tala.
He ran a hand through his hair. There's an option: assassinate Vandire and Thunderblade first. I could probably do it, or at least get one of them. The rebellion would fall apart without them... but I don't really want to hurt Nikephoros, and I've never even seen Kathos, so finding him to even attempt a kill is out of the question. Even assuming I pulled it off without a hitch, it comes back to Laythe: would she believe me if I told her I killed them to spare her? Would she not care? Or if I didn't tell her that I killed both of them, would she execute me when she found out? I don't know. I just... don't know...
He took a deep breath, closed his eyes for a few seconds, and released it. I can't be selfish. I have to do what's right for my family. Even if I somehow singlehandedly stopped this rebellion like a storybook hero, there would be another one. Who knows, I could even be the leader of it. So... even if I hate myself for it... I'll stand aside. But I can't be a part of it. I can't risk being there, having it within my power to save her. I have to stay here, and not think about it. We'll make it through this, one way or another. A humorless laugh as he stepped away from the window.
I was right all along, though. Old Vandire is going to take the throne away from Ralia...