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[dot12321]

First, I'd just like to say that I'll probably stop posting in this thread altogether if I see some cool-kid thinking he's awesome by laughing or jumping on band-wagons in this thread.

Okay. So, long story short, I finally fell in love with the girl I had broken up with three times (all being horrible mistakes now that I think about it), and she basically starts telling me she hates me and she wants me to die out of nowhere. I mean, it's horrible, but I had hurt her a lot, so I guess I kind of deserved it. She blames the fact that she's messed up now because of me, and a lot of other things. So, always being depressed and shit over this and other things, I made the dumb mistake of starting to cut myself again. My thighs are scarred completely because of it. Basically, the entirety of both my thighs say dumb things like, "I'M SO SORRY", "LIAR", "1/30" (the last time I ever saw her) and over 100 other cuts going up and down my thighs (I actually counted, once)
That was about 2 months ago. The scars remain clearly visible, as big pink lines.

Well, now, she had gone and told the school's guidance office that I was cutting myself a few days ago. On Friday she talked to them about it, and on Monday I'm getting called down, where they may check me.

Here's the deal. Three years ago, when I used to cut and I was caught, my mother had told me that if I was ever caught again, I'd be put in a mental hospital for rehabilitation or something. I'm petrified to go to school on Monday. I really don't know what to do..

[SIGVARDR]

Don't be afraid of psychiatric help.Seek it out.
I cannot personally relate to your problem so i will not try and tell you what i personally think about it.

[ein]

How are scars on your thighs clearly visible?
Either you're mistaking calves for thighs or you wear some pretty short shorts.

Anyway, yeah. Therapy is very, very helpful.

[Pillow_Killer]

Mental hospital? Sounds alright, good luck!

[Phmcw]

Well, think about it, doesn't it sound right to you? You seems to got problems, a bit of professional help should help you.

[x2yzh9]

...You guys are missing the point. Cutting yourself doesn't mean your in-fucking-sane. You should see a therapist yes, but not go to a mental hospital unless your in danger of hurting yourself or others genuinely.

[piecewise]

...You guys are missing the point. Cutting yourself doesn't mean your in-fucking-sane. You should see a therapist yes, but not go to a mental hospital unless your in danger of hurting yourself or others genuinely.

agreed.

Cutting can be caused by lots of things, a desire for attention, borderline personality disorder, or simple depression. Its best to seek help. 

[Hyndis]

Go to the counselor and seek help. Its probably the only way to start the path to recovery.

[smigenboger]

I'd avoid going through your school's guidance and seek a professional therapist. If told to expose your legs, say you have a right not to show them. A mental hospital may just make you feel worse than before, it's better to seek help, and remain on a normal schedule.

Don't get caught up in one specific person. There's others that are better than the one you've spent time with.

[Paranatural]

I have known a lot of cutters, and some burners. (Same thing but they burn themselves). Usually it's used as a form of using the pain as a way to relieve the emotional pain inside them. Everyone is different, but this is usually how it works. The problem is, as you have discovered, it doesn't actually cure anything. It just makes the symptom go away for a while.

You need some help, and that is OK. It's not a sign of weakness, anymore than needing to go to the doctor for strep throat is.

[Pathos]

I have known a lot of cutters, and some burners. (Same thing but they burn themselves). Usually it's used as a form of using the pain as a way to relieve the emotional pain inside them. Everyone is different, but this is usually how it works. The problem is, as you have discovered, it doesn't actually cure anything. It just makes the symptom go away for a while.

You need some help, and that is OK. It's not a sign of weakness, anymore than needing to go to the doctor for strep throat is.

Well, no, it's because endorphines are released, which is a pleasurable sensation. So, you come to associate the cutting / burning with the endorphine release and therefore do it more and more. It's basically an addiction.

[dot12321]

How are scars on your thighs clearly visible?
Either you're mistaking calves for thighs or you wear some pretty short shorts.

Anyway, yeah. Therapy is very, very helpful.

I meant they're very noticeable. And yeah, cutting is like an addiction.
What I forgot to put in the OP is that I can't let my entire family down by getting caught again..

[Jude]

Definitely don't go to a mental hospital (as in, inpatient type thing) right off the bat. MAYBE it's the best thing but it's also a huge disruption of your life and there's other, less disrupting (and stigmatizing) options you should try first. Definitely see a professional. Get referred to other professionals. Do it ASAP.

Clearly, you do have a problem that needs to be treated - if you didn't have something wrong already, you wouldn't react that way to a breakup. If you've already been hurting (much less scarring) yourself, PLEASE go see a mental health professional right away. Your family will just have to come to terms with it, and if you put off getting help because you're afraid of what they think, it's just going to keep getting worse. If your mom sees what you were doing as something that has to be punished instead of treated (which I'm getting from you being worried about "getting caught") then she has some problems of her own, but that's not for you to worry about fixing right now.

I can't refer you to anybody obviously but a school counselor is a good place to start.

[Hungry]

I've met cutters, they dont make sense to me...and from me thats saying volumes.

=P

[Grakelin]

I agree with everybody here, though I think your problem is more that you're worried about being sent to a mental clinic, and not that you're thinking of checking into one. Don't worry about it. There are so many cutters wandering around schools that the mental hospitals don't waste their space on it. They have people with actual mental illnesses to worry about.