Ohhhh bother, one of my older, weirder and more persistent problems has returned after a long absence. I've never really been open about it because i think it's weird and shameful, but what the hell, there are people who have waifu pillows. Basically, it relates to dragons (especially powerful ones getting visibly injured), for unknown reasons (and that's not just me hiding it, i genuinely don't know why), and it kind of feels like it makes my bowels and stomach contract, giving me severe nausea and heart pounding if i eat more than a little bit. I'd call it fear or anxiety, but on the other hand... Nothing else causes such a reaction in me, at all. Sure, fear and anxiety give me a griping in the gut, but it's no lasting effect. This particular problem, in its worst occurrence, lasted the better part of 8 months, which resulted in me losing 5kg off of my already skinny frame.
It vanished very suddenly the first time when i fought the first dragon in Skyrim, possibly due to shock therapy. Since then, it has only been brief pangs, and i even slew two dragons in DA: Inquisition without ill effects. Enter last night, where i read things on TVTropes (god help me), and then KABOOM. Apetite very low, nausea lurking around the corner. This... Brings back memories that i could do without. It doesn't even feel like an emotional response, although my irritable bowels and fear of vomiting definitely don't help.
... Upon reflection, it can be compared to what i feel while waiting for an exam to begin (i.e. worry/nervousness), except it's MUCH worse. Exams already mess with my bowels, so imagine taking that feeling and amplifying it by an order of magnitude, and then you have The Problem(tm). I don't suppose anyone else has this kind of problem?