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[Worldmaster27]

I feel quite shitty. I can't bring myself to care about any of my classes, and the threat of failing is the only thing that keeps me doing stuff. This has led to me getting behind schedule in a few classes, which I am now stressing over because I'm going to fail these assignments if I don't...

weeeeeee

[technicallyAdventurer]

I can't eat at the table with my family without being yelled at or insulted, or simply both.

I think I'm just going to skip dinner.

[MaximumZero]

I'm really getting sick and tired of this car's bullshit. Starter died, father in law bought me one, and now I can't get the old one off. I'm not strong enough, and I don't have any air tools (not like I could use them anyway, I live in an apartment. I'm surprised I didn't get yelled at for working on my car in the first place.) When I got under the car, there was oil everywhere on the undercarriage, suggesting that it'd been leaking for a long time. Years. Several years. The car always has some bullshit problem with it (battery randomly dead, randomly flat tires, starter, intermittent various electrical failures, etc. There's more, but etc.) and I'm about done. I would be done with the thing, if that was an option.

I need this new job so I can get a new car and be done with this piece of shit. It's a hand-me-down hand-me-down used car, and it's almost like no one has ever really taken care of it. So, now I'm stuck with it.

[Tack]

EDIT: Actually, I think it's attachment problems. Guess I know what to talk to my therapist about next week.

You having some rocky times with the current/former SO?
'Cos despite the vagueposting, that is an incredibly legitimate reason for all them emotions.

[Urist Imiknorris]

battery randomly dead, randomly flat tires, starter, intermittent various electrical fires, etc.

What I read.

[Yoink]

hahaha, all you poor sods not living in the south, who needs alcohol tolerance when you have moonshine and fireball whiskey

If I was drinking at home it wouldn't be such a problem- it's when you're at a bar where each drink is about eight bucks that tolerance is a pain in the ass. If I was just spending an evening in with a bottle of Jägermeister no amount of 'tolerance' would keep me sober for long.

[Vector]

-snip-

[Kadzar]

It's kind of a general issue with a disorganized attachment style, which has me on a crazy emotional rollercoaster with most of my relationships even if most of them have an appearance of being relatively stable at this point. I don't tend to post about it explicitly, because a lot of it is stuff like: "My housemate didn't seem as delighted to see me as she usually does! What did I do wrong?! Am I going to get kicked out??? Do I need to make her a gift? Well, THAT's fine, it's not like I care what SHE thinks about anything! SHE'S a [insert something incredibly dismissive of her entire humanity here]." And I don't tend to act on that. I just calm myself down, say: "... Vector, that's crazy," and try to move on. Then I vaguebook about the stress and pain it's causing me. But I'd rather not have those feelings in the first place.

I definitely understand this. I very much question how people how people perceive me and my actions. I've noticed lately that I don't seem to get any responses when I post things on Facebook. And I'm not sure if it's that people are ignoring me or if Facebook's algorithms cause my posts to be unseen by most people. To be fair, I don't really use Facebook for much more than a news/subscription feed these days, especially since I don't interact much with people on it, probably caused by them not interacting with me, caused by the reverse, in a feedback loop of non-communication.

Although I'm not sure if I really want to communicate with them anyway; I often feel I don't really have much in common with them anymore. But then occasionally I find out that I do have things in common with people, but it never surfaced because I wasn't invested in my relationship with them enough to find out. In some ways I try to replace them with other people I meet irl but am not connected with on Facebook, but I seem unable to form close relationships with new people, possibly because I'm afraid that we'll lose touch, and they'll just end up as more people I used to know.

So, I don't have anything like your background, but I think I feel what you're feeling here (or maybe not; my thoughts got rambly there, and I'm not sure how sensibly my post is at this point, but I feel like it's better at this point to post than to delete it all).

[ChairmanPoo]

The only thing worse than cancer is contagious cancer. RIP.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clonally_transmissible_cancer

[Orange Wizard]

The only thing worse than cancer is contagious cancer. RIP.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clonally_transmissible_cancer

... well, shit.

[Bauglir]

Bleugh, I keep vacillating between "Oh man finally somebody likes me" and "Oh man they're just being nice out of pity or something, I'm not the sort of person people like, so don't get your hopes up". I'm really good at projecting like that, I guess. Not quite the same thing as Vector's got (where they dissociate under the stress of sudden feelings of persecution it sounds like, I tend to revert to "anxious child" mode).

no i don't have anything helpful to say

just "me too, maybe"

good luck

[Vector]

-snip-

[Bauglir]

I'd say you have no idea how much hearing that helps, but maybe you do. It's a ton. Thank you.

[Bohandas]

hahaha, all you poor sods not living in the south, who needs alcohol tolerance when you have moonshine and fireball whiskey

If I was drinking at home it wouldn't be such a problem- it's when you're at a bar where each drink is about eight bucks that tolerance is a pain in the ass. If I was just spending an evening in with a bottle of Jägermeister no amount of 'tolerance' would keep me sober for long.

And that is why I refuse to go to bars.

[Jopax]

Well as it turns out I was wrong, and an ass to boot. We talked it out and I felt much better after that. Tho we did come rather close to ending it all completely (and I'm still not sure if that is actually happening or not, it was kinda left hanging in the air).

Oh well, atleast I learned what I was doing wrong, even though the way I learned was kinda shitty.