I don't feel like doing anything. At All. Not even anything passive, like watching tv. Not even listening to music. I'm not tired. But I just can't bring myself to put even minimal effort into doing anything I don't have to. I keep browsing through all the various things I could be doing with my Saturday, maybe engaging in them for a few minutes, then giving up. And my thoughts keep bending towards work. All the shit I'll be facing on Monday. All the things I could be doing now to clean shit up so work is less of a mess when I go back. I know if I keep allowing myself to think like that, I'm never going to escape the way work has dominated my life the last few months, and I'll continue to get more burned out. But then again, the more issues at work continue to snowball due to lack of time during normal hours to keep things in proper order while scrambling to keep up with essential tasks, the worse things are going to get and the worse my burnout is going to get anyway.
And while things continue like this, my family continues to get more dysfunctional, as I have less and less energy to spend time with my extroverted wife and kids. And while I remain distant, they grow increasingly unable to get along with each other.
All because upper management still refuses to hire more people to help, after they more than doubled our workload, because they have profit growth targets to hit. I'm hoping to escape soon, but I know that my next job will almost certainly be more of the same. It's the same cycle everywhere. Keep squeezing workers more and more. Those numbers have to grow. Every year. Forever. Until something gives, and the whole thing falls apart.