I just realized I want to do everything. As in there's lots of different things I want to be good at, and to achieve the level of "good" that I want to, it would require extensive work and focus on a specific thing to get good at it. Like drawing. Or playing guitar. Or writing music. Or programming a game. Or writing a novel or short story or worldbuilding for fantasy or something. Or playing all the cool video games. I can't focus on one specific thing without being unable to do all the other things I like. So I can't specialize in one thing. So I can't get good at everything I want to because it's physically impossible to focus on them all specifically all at the same time.
Bound for a life of jack of all trades and master of none, I guess. Seems like I'm bound for nothing but inner disappointment and unfulfillment.
I am one of these, probably slightly later in life.
My advice is that this feeling won't go away, so get started on it now, and just cross stuff off your list until you find something that seriously grips you.
If it doesn't, you shall be a jack of all trades. Enjoy life.
You could firstly try to stop dubbing yourself as a failure by applying a
future possibility as if it was
present reality and notice that the focus on these things [those possibilities] is what, is pretty much, bringing you down.
Its not balanced by rational thought--it is focus on a negative label which encompasses the present, and the perceived, predicted future...without taking in all other factors (like the idea that you can change it).
Doing nothing equals doing nothing. Doing something, while being aware of what you do, equals something, though you'd notice there's a lot of ways on how one can think about doing something in a proceeding fashion.
To poke at the orange bit--I know one guy who actually pursued the path you're stating (jack of all trades, but mastering all)--he mastered difficulty. That guy is our national hero--Jose Rizal; he spent much of his time mastering skills that in the process of doing such, he didn't focus on how
hard things are, but how these things can be mastered. It is from people like him that we note, that the hardest thing is usually always in the first steps--the first things we all focus on and note the difficulty. Has the guitarist woe'd the notion of playing an A chord when he has already learned it? Has the mathematician had trouble with single-digit multiplication when that's a basic first step?
All these things are 'hard' in foresight. Many of these things are easy in hindsight, once accomplished.
Difficulty is a relative term, only to describe how it is presently seen. Many, many things that can be done personally are very much possible. c:
You'll notice that when you focus on the deed and the work at hand, you'll focus less on how bloody hard and difficult it is.
Reminds me of the many woes I had to learn in university studies. Many of my peers say {x} is hard.
We noticed it was only hard because we didn't have experience in that field beforehand (ie Medicine. Why wasn't this taught in high school!? D:<), so it is hard because of lacking knowledge into it--both conscious and subconscious.
And then we read up and studied, focused on our readings and practiced first-hand writing, copying techniques and notes and familiarizing terms and applying imagery or art to it to get it in gear. It doesn't seem that hard to describe 'nervous stage fright' in medical terms now!
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*erase erase*Now if I can only get this pixel art right! Customized armor is hard. :X
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