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I didn't have time to respond to this earlier, but I just want to say: no matter your doubts, go ahead with the 'moving out' thing.
Even if the place you move to doesn't seem ideal, just gaining that independence will be an incredibly healthy experience for you. I used to feel a lot like you do now, I lived at home with my mother under a constant barrage of annoyances from her, I was terribly depressed and basically a complete failure in every way.
Somehow, somehow I managed to find the courage to move out.
Sure, that didn't really work out as well as I'd planned; I never got a job or started studying and I ended up getting sick of my housemates, but I just felt so much better about myself having that freedom and knowing I could stand on my own two feet. Albeit with unemployment pay as a crutch.
So, yeah: go for it.
Well, thanks.
Maybe some of my angst comes from the fact that I feel like an "incomplete person" and that I don't belong in society as a result.
I don't know, growing up I don't know if any stage of myself had a solid identity.
I feel like such a miserable shitbag who's whole life has been "what I don't want" as opposed to "what I want".
I type this out during my break at work, sitting by myself in the desolated corner of the OB lounge, where I spend alot of my breaks, just questioning the value of my life.