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[Reudh]

Aye, I will agree. People barely remember highschool or are pleasantly surprised by the change wrought in you. I'm well liked now due to the spectre of depression finally disappearing, and people now say "Reudh, were you always so cheerful?"

And I say "Not always, but it's here to stay!".

Keeping a positive outlook on life helps. I can empathise with your highschool grievances, having gone through most of them myself.

[Descan]

So uh...

My grandma is dead. I saw her after she passed.

I basically broke.

I'm feeling better but I still have a wound in my heart.

[Reudh]

So uh...

My grandma is dead. I saw her after she passed.

I basically broke.

I'm feeling better but I still have a wound in my heart.

I know that feel bro. I remember when my great-grandpa passed. 'Twas a sombre time.

[Haspen]

Descan, I know that feel, man, happened to me several years ago. Still haven't totally went over that...

* Haspen gives Descan all the hugs.

[Vattic]

So uh...

My grandma is dead. I saw her after she passed.

I basically broke.

I'm feeling better but I still have a wound in my heart.

I'm really sorry to hear that. I know how you feel to lose a grandparent, I spent many weeks every summer at my grandma's and it was tough when she passed away.

[Trapezohedron]

@Descan

Uhh... sorry for that. I've seen my brother's girlfriend's mother cry so hard after her mother (grandmother to my bro's GF) died, and I can tell you it wasn't a good experience at all.


Everyone at school is now labelling me as an introvert who lacks confidence. Which is very true. I mean, was it really that obvious?

[kaijyuu]

Everyone at school is now labelling me as an introvert who lacks confidence. Which is very true. I mean, was it really that obvious?

I hope they're not being jerks about it.

[JoshuaFH]

My condolences to Descan, losing a loved one is a hard thing to overcome in life.


So more driving around today. Not on business, I'm just looking for a gaming shop that's apparently in a part of town I never frequent. Thanks to some faulty directions from the locals and my own faulty ability to follow them, I make a big retarded circle around two towns. During this adventure, I forgot to put on my gas cap and lost it at a gas stations, embarrassed myself driving around for maybe 20 miles with the gas hatch open, nearly got hit by a semi, drove on the 70 mile/hour freeway when my car struggles to get past 55 without shaking thanks to one of my tires not being balanced or something, had to stop into parking lots several times to collect myself, didn't get anything productive accomplished, and saw an old man riding a tiny old clown car.

Now that I have the power of google maps, I know exactly where it is, but even if I'm sure they'll be open late thanks to the weekly FNM, I'm hesitant to leave home again for today.

[MaximumZero]

So uh...

My grandma is dead. I saw her after she passed.

I basically broke.

I'm feeling better but I still have a wound in my heart.

* MaximumZero  hugs Descan.

Fell better, bro. Let me know if you need a shoulder.

[Reudh]

drove on the 70 mile/hour freeway when my car struggles to get past 55 without shaking thanks to one of my tires not being balanced or something,

I'd get that fixed as soon as humanly possible. That's not good.

[Trapezohedron]

Everyone at school is now labelling me as an introvert who lacks confidence. Which is very true. I mean, was it really that obvious?

I hope they're not being jerks about it.

I sure do hope so, I mean I can't hear what they talk about behind my back. And to answer your question, they haven't been acting like jerks yet, but if I do keep this up, they might associate me with those two shameful traits of mine.

Also, I've been failing math class. Hard.

[kaijyuu]

Eh, I'd argue that neither trait is "shameful." There's nothing inherently bad about being a loner or lacking confidence. That's what I meant when I asked if they were being jerks; if they've noticed, I do hope they're offering a hand to help, and not further ostracizing you.

Being introverted and lacking confidence is just part of who you are. If you want to change that, that's fine, but don't bring "shame" into the equation. Beating yourself up over it, or allowing others to insult you over it, is the opposite of helpful and will in fact inhibit you from changing. Vicious cycles, and all that.

[Trapezohedron]

Well, thanks... I guess?

I just said that because "Everyone is expected to be friendly, and therefore a functioning member of society" mentality is kind of imprinted in most everyones' minds, and because of that, loners are freaks of society and all that sh*t.

It isn't easy for me to strike small talk between other people, but everyone expects everyone to be as open as a girl's diary being read aloud in a conference.

Thing is, they want me to talk history. I won't, because it will just jeopardize my family's reputation. And I'm avoiding them to keep them from interrogating me. Because of that, they're labelling me as an introvert.

Of course, since I'm lacking confidence, I took whatever they said to heart, and now, I'm wondering if being myself is bad, if you're really just someone who wants his solitude without them prying into your life.

FAKEDIT: I don't know what I'm typing anymore...

[kaijyuu]

I don't know either, but it's probably helpful to talk As long as you're comfortable talking.

I know far too many people (myself included) who have self confidence issues and know it. It's a vicious cycle because once you realize that, you stop yourself from trying because "I'll get scared and screw up," further complicating things and making more likely you screw up or not even try in the first place. Case and point, I'm afraid I offended you and it's almost kept me from posting this out of fear of digging myself deeper.

Fear and shame about self confidence needs to be eliminated before one can actually gain some.



Anyway, do you think holding back about your history is bad? I don't think you do. Therefore, it's not bad, despite what others might say or think. Don't be ashamed.

[SalmonGod]

drove on the 70 mile/hour freeway when my car struggles to get past 55 without shaking thanks to one of my tires not being balanced or something,

I'd get that fixed as soon as humanly possible. That's not good.

I had a tire explode on me while I was going about 70 on the interstate.  It was rather scary.  The tires on that car had some kind of work done on them a few days before and weren't aligned properly.  The car swayed slightly when it got up around 65-70, but I didn't think much of it... until my tire was suddenly spaghetti and I barely kept control of the car while coming to a stop, surrounded by traffic.

Definitely get that taken care of.