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[nenjin]

I'm sad because my PCGamer subscriprion costs so much. A thousand for a year.

Ladies and gentlemen, we finally found him, the guy who's single-handedly keeping that rag alive.

This puts new meaning into the words "disposable income." $1,000 a year? What.....person forks over that much cash for a gaming magazine? That's more than some people pay in fucking car insurance!

[lordnincompoop]

I love how you guys assumed dollars and stuck with the unreasonable figure. No, a thousand SEK.

[Aklyon]

Which is $150.81 according to Google.
Still a lot for a magazine

[nenjin]

That makes more sense, but is still pretty insane for a magazine. That's like, almost an MMO subscription fee. And PCGamer isn't what it used to be, these days.

[Leafsnail]

Hmm... how often does it come?  I mean, my New Scientist subscription could easily cost that much.

[Vector]

Grrrrrrarrrrrrrrrgh.

Haven't spent any significant time with people out of class for... what, 3 months now?  Maybe 4?

The worst part of this is that it's probably my fault, and I know it, too.  I could have socialized earlier if I'd just swallowed my pride and asked Rosewood if he wanted to hang out and play video games.  I could go to the movies by myself, or go out to dinner, or hang out at a cafe... the library, even.

But no.  I'm craven.  I'm craven, and I'm stubborn, and I'm obsessed with things coming in threes.  It's not that I can't solve my problem.  It's that I won't, because first off now that I know the solution I don't feel like implementing it, and second off I'm a coward who "prefers" my own company.  Yeah freaking right.

And the saddest part is that I know very well I'll continue this way, in the same old rut, because the goal was never happiness and complaining is easy.


Oh, and I'm also bored... because I've mastered the proof techniques needed for pretty much all undergraduate work, and at this point I'm just working on understanding the development of theory (i.e., which questions are significant).  Bleh.  A bored Vector is an angry Vector, I guess.  An angry and depressed Vector, perhaps.

How ridiculous it is to be both under-stimulated and over-stimulated, simultaneously.

Screw these mood swings.  They'd better be worth the payoff in the long run.

[Schilcote]

When I feel like that, I usually daydream about committing war crimes and murdering people I don't like. It helps a lot actually. Though you'll probably want to daydream about something a bit more tame.

[Vector]

When I feel like that, I usually daydream about committing war crimes and murdering people I don't like. It helps a lot actually. Though you'll probably want to daydream about something a bit more tame.

Been there, done that, you don't have a monopoly on crazy.

Doesn't make me feel any better nowadays.  Just a little bit sick.  Thanks, though.

[Schilcote]

When I feel like that, I usually daydream about committing war crimes and murdering people I don't like. It helps a lot actually. Though you'll probably want to daydream about something a bit more tame.

Been there, done that, you don't have a monopoly on crazy.

Doesn't make me feel any better nowadays.  Just a little bit sick.  Thanks, though.

I'm joking. Though I do dream of taking over the world sometimes.

[Aqizzar]

But no.  I'm craven.  I'm craven, and I'm stubborn, and I'm obsessed with things coming in threes.  It's not that I can't solve my problem.  It's that I won't, because first off now that I know the solution I don't feel like implementing it, and second off I'm a coward who "prefers" my own company.  Yeah freaking right.

And the saddest part is that I know very well I'll continue this way, in the same old rut, because the goal was never happiness and complaining is easy.

Yeah, the farther I've drifted from my highschool friends, the more I thought I was feeling the same way.  Including preferring my own company to meeting new people, even if I make myself miserable.  Then a guy came up to me offering to join a club and go get drinks.  My first thought was, "who is this weirdo starting a conversation with me, even though I was hoping someone would, I don't want to talk to anybody."  Then shazam I've got new friends.  Social anxiety being what it is, every time I call someone asking what's going on, I'm afraid I'll come off as too "clingy", no matter how many times they say they love hearing me talk, for some insane reason.

Point is, interpersonal contact is worth it.  Sure, intellectual solitude feels like it's fulfilling at the time, but it's not.  It's just cold, spiteful, self-vindication, a free invitation to feel good about the parts of yourself you honestly despise in the privacy of your own mind.  Then you hang out eating burgers for two hours gabbing about shit, and you remember, "oh right, this is what it's like to have the socialization itch scratched."  If people are offering to hang out, you might as well try it.  Even if you wind up saying nothing, at least you'll know those aren't people worthwhile to hang with.  And I certainly wouldn't include on the list of possibles, anyone who you have to "swallow your pride" to talk to.  There are other human beings in the world.

[Schilcote]

I actually never had any social problems besides logistical ones. I think it's just that I'm confident and charismatic enough that I can just let people gravitate towards me and not screw anything up.

[Aqizzar]

I think it's just that I'm confident and charismatic enough that I can just let people gravitate towards me and not screw anything up.

Yeah... This from the guy who makes every other post about how he wants to murder people and bemoans every second of his existence.  Heavy is the crown of being the post charismatic man in the world.

[Schilcote]

I think it's just that I'm confident and charismatic enough that I can just let people gravitate towards me and not screw anything up.

Yeah... This from the guy who makes every other post about how he wants to murder people and bemoans every second of his existence.  Heavy is the crown of being the post charismatic man in the world.

One can be charismatic and occasionally miserable at the same time.

EDIT:

Though I am unusually cheerful and lucid at the moment.

[ToonyMan]

Talking to people is awesome, it's like what this forum is made for I think?

I think it's just that I'm confident and charismatic enough that I can just let people gravitate towards me and not screw anything up.

Yeah... This from the guy who makes every other post about how he wants to murder people and bemoans every second of his existence.  Heavy is the crown of being the post charismatic man in the world.

One can be charismatic and occasionally miserable at the same time.

Dude, you're not charismatic at all.

[Schilcote]

Talking to people is awesome, it's like what this forum is made for I think?

I think it's just that I'm confident and charismatic enough that I can just let people gravitate towards me and not screw anything up.

Yeah... This from the guy who makes every other post about how he wants to murder people and bemoans every second of his existence.  Heavy is the crown of being the post charismatic man in the world.

One can be charismatic and occasionally miserable at the same time.

Dude, you're not charismatic at all.

How, having never seen me in person or had an actual conversation with me, do you know? You've only seen a single facet of my personality.