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[Yoink]

Went and nuked my profile, made a new one (just in case anyone's wondering)

Honestly? I'm actually very upset by this. It feels like a betrayal 

I couldn't have said it better myself. The rest of us live with our embarrassing early posts!

[JoshuaFH]

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[Great Order]

You know what's fun? Having anxiety and being pressured into doing things that make you anxious.

An opportunity to learn how to deal with the anxiety, no?

I get you though, it’s hard to stop that ball rolling once it starts.

The unfortunate thing about exposure therapy is that it only works when the patient is willing, otherwise it tends to make things worse.

Went and nuked my profile, made a new one (just in case anyone's wondering)

Honestly? I'm actually very upset by this. It feels like a betrayal 

I couldn't have said it better myself. The rest of us live with our embarrassing early posts!

Y'all are just jelly that I don't have to live with my own cringe any more.

[Yoink]

Sorry, who are you, again?    

[TD1]

I think it's a bot, just ignore it.

[Yoink]

Alright, setting the bar low today with just one thing I want myself to do: laundry. Let's see if I get around to it or nah.

[Rolan7]

Alright, setting the bar low today with just one thing I want myself to do: laundry. Let's see if I get around to it or nah.

100% relateable, which is completely absurd.  There are probably drugs that would let me not be like that, but American "health care".

[Yoink]

Dude, I'm over here in Australia but they stuff they give me seems to have done pretty much jack-diddly in terms of motivation.   
Guess I should maybe change my meds at some point, or just go back to self-medicating...    

[Cathar]

Diogenes begged to statues to train himself to accept rejection. But this ain't shit compared to job begging in France.
This is soul crushingly painful. Add to that the administration making me jump through hoops to prove I'm really serious when I say I'm not fond of starving to death, and you got a not so great situation to be in.

Hope it'll be over soon

[Yoink]

Damnit, I did the whole 'wake up, grab phone, disable alarm, go back to sleep and have more weird dreams' thing again.

[wierd]

Powered bluetooth speaker + phone very far away from bed.

Then you have to actually get your aussie arse out of bed.

[Yoink]

Good idea in theory, but I do often leave my phone plugged in on the other side of my room - it's still loud enough to wake me - but sometimes even after scrambling groggily out of bed to shut it up, my disgraceful self just decides it's too bloody cold this morning and comes to the conclusion that a few more minutes under the blankets is the best way forward.
I know what a terrible idea that is, but in those moments when I've just woken up the lizard brain is still in control... and the lizard brain hates this cold weather.

[wierd]

Replace your alarm tone with some horrible J-pop. Something that grates on your very soul.  That, plus the distant phone method, should make you to rage-hate filled to go back to sleep.

[Yoink]

Hmmm, sounds like it could work! Worth a shot, anyhow.   

[methylatedspirit]

In an attempt to ease the... suffering? from the stimulants I take, I'm taking a reduced dosage of the stuff for the whole week, based on the advice of my shrink. And now, 1 weekday in, I'm already thinking that it's a "damned if I do, damned if I don't" situation.

See, if I take them at the full dose, intrusive thoughts start flooding in, and I become far more stressed than normal. My entire internal monologue degrades into an endless loop of Death Grips and anger.

Now that I'm taking them at this reduced dose, it turns out that those same intrusive thoughts show up when I'm trying to sleep. I slept at 2 am last night, wrangling with those thoughts.

When will it end? Why can't it just stop?