I almost sounds like Maurice is trying to get punished.
Nah, just trying to set the record straight. To make the lives of Maurice's future biographers easier (although, probably less juicier). And to save an innocent dead man from posthumous damnation. Also, bothering with lies and misconceptions is... undignified. Does not behold a man of his position and calibre, anyway.
I mean, had Milno or Miyamoto been before a trial like this (for their own reasons, but with similar drama involved), would they bother with any of that stuff? I'd like to think that they'd hold to their right to honesty before their peers until the end.
I almost sounds like Maurice is trying to get punished.
"Yep, I definitely thought it might work out if I fought a God that is bigger than a universe. What of it?"
How very .... dwarfy.
I nominate Ryan as "sanest doctor" now, since Maurice seems to have lost touch with this universe's reality long before he met Lurker.
As much as it pains me to say, I guess Maurice was never the Sanest Medic around here. The Competent Medic, maybe, though note that he never himself proclaimed that much.
(Though, to be fair, Maurice's slightly slipping touch with reality is still very tame by standards of HMRC/ARM. I mean, his greatest offence is, down to it, what, optimism? ...Okay, I agree, a significant mental disorder, but there are far worse ones out there.
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You're using metaknowledge and/or hindsight 20/20 to judge him. If you encounter a hostile mental influence during a mission, then trying to fight it is the best thing you can do is fight it. Even the AM says that. Given that he was dealing with mindfuck, he would have no way of knowing what's really going on and if he can win or not.
That's why I would had liked being a lawyer in that trial. I could speak for my client, sush him when he says something we haven't rehearsed, claim that he is in a bad mental state and thus his last statement should be ignored by the jury, make closing statements...
Thank you for your words of support, Paris. Yeah, hindsight and off-mission safety make for a very different perspective on things. I can't say that a "tamed" version of the trial, with lawyers and so on, would have been more interesting, but I guess having someone see over your statements and point out the bits that sound very different to audience than they sound in your head would have been extremely useful. (Like that time when I just wanted to offer an IC explanation to Hasala's silence... and look how it was understood.
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