I hope it's OK to post if I've never even so much as sought a diagnosis for anything...
Oh right, I lost count as to how many times many teachers thought I should belong to a 'special' class because of my "disorders". Disorders my ass, according to my post, I was just being lazy through and through. I knew the material well enough, the homework and their teaching methods were just a hassle I would rather sleep through or draw in the middle of class past, not to mention, I knew the crap the gifted kids had to put up with, so I played dumb for a good portion of my educational life so could make friends a bit easier, and not have as much crap to deal with extra-curricularly; if that's not a sign of being (at least street-)smart, I don't know what is. Not to mention, as much of a retard I was assumed to be, because I didn't know how to tie my shoes at the time (I'm not kidding, I was judged by that BS of a test; I come from a large family, so learning how to do so took a bit longer than usual for me.), I was still the fastest reader amongst the class (out loud; and to the point others reading so slowly made me want to slam my head into the desk, and this was since kindergarten), even though my comprehension sucked due to a lack of motivation and interest (only grades that sucked were the classes that bored me to death; the slow-ass readers were also some cause for blame as well).
Considering all of the above, I wonder why acting didn't hold my interest (seeing as I utilized my patheticness to my advantage, hid an alternate reality for at least a decade, and am also a quick learner with means of adapting to crowds rapidly)... Oh right, social bullshit and dealing with people, fans, and politics; not to mention the workloads. Kinda figured that's why I accepted being a loser so well. It seemed to be a current I moved along with more easily, or was more fitting to my brilliant, but lazy personality.
Sounds a lot like me, though fortunately I never felt like I had to shield myself from people who'd bully smart types. I've never been good with doing work that doesn't interest me in some way, so in retrospect it's no surprise that I miserably failed at
the IB program.* I just have an extremely hard time doing boring stuff, no matter how important it is I do it. If I can't muster up some personal interest, it's only getting done poorly, if at all. (It's why I eventually failed English in the second-to-last semester of high school, and had to make up for it with two English classes next semester. Thanks, overly-ridiculous credit requirements for a subject that means jack outside the world of literature!)
Strangely, although I always feel incredibly nervous about any public event, whenever I had to give a presentation in school I always turned out far, far better than i hoped. So acting probably would be fun for me, after I get past the stage fright
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Let's see... socially, my general lack of motivation, esp. towards the end, prevented me from making many or close friends. Also, in middle school I had issues with reading when people didn't want to converse with me anymore, in part because I rarely talked with anyone. I'd say that's a classic sign of Asperger's, were it not for the fact that I've since learned to pick up on those cues. I also still find it physically impossible to purposefully look someone in the eye for any reason ever. If/when I notice it, I just have to look elsewhere. I know it'll make me look disinterested, but it just can't be done.
So, I guess I'm being weird then
. I've found a total of three mental issues that I've
oh so reliably self-diagnosed myself with, because they explain various annoying quirks of mine. You should know though that I'm suspicious of magically having
three disorders, so I only keep them in mind as another way of describing what I see myself having problems with.
I do wonder why Bay 12 has so many people with disorders, though.
You won't get an unbiased answer in this thread
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Me aside, this looks to be an interesting topic of conversation and I hope it goes beyond "here's what's wrong with me." PTW, if you will.
Me too, I think it's just natural for everyone to start with their issues in this type of thread. I'm certainly up for non-personally discussing various issues.
*For you who know about the IB program, read below
I took the full diploma, because secretly I'm an idiot.
I never so much as touched my EE. It took intervention with the Coordinator just to get me to pick a subject, almost a year into the year-long process we're given to do the thing.
IAs held some mystical power to keep me from ever doing one. Whether it was being stuck on an idea for the experiment, or running into computer problems, or old-fashioned laziness, they never happened. The only one that did happen was because my teacher for that subject bugged about it for months with threats of an F in the class.
CAS never happened, because that requires a simultaneous change in all of my exercise habits (not that terrible to change, really), my sociability (especially for the Community Service portion), and my motivation.
So nothing came out of it ultimately, and the IB can go die in a whole for all the shits I give about it.