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[chaoticag]

The forums won't be the same without you.

[SalmonGod]

Since posting songs in this thread seems to be a thing, I'll go ahead and share a couple.

This one has reminded me of you for a pretty long time, but I've always been too shy to share it as such.  I suppose now's the time, if you're really going to stick to your guns about disappearing for a long time/forever.  You've often posted some pretty deep stuff about self-awareness of how you're changing and growing, and trying to direct that growth to become strong and balanced, while feeling like your past combined with the directions you've chosen leave you disconnected from the world around you.  The male/female duet even reminds me of your gender identity conflicts, especially with the "Why should you fear me/Why should I fear you" part concerning your pre-occupation with misogyny while at the same time harboring a partially masculine identity.

Not sure how well it actually fits or how creepy this is to you, but I've been a people watcher for the last 15 years.  One of my quests in life has been to understand human behavior, and I pay a lot of attention to interesting persona who fill in pieces of the puzzle.  You have taught me a lot, and are a very inspiring and thought-provoking person in general.

After Forever - Imperfect Tenses

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Why can't they see?
They're to blame, I can't forgive
It left a permanent mark behind,
My weakness, my strength

I'm waiting for the perfect sign
To reveal what lies inside
There's no lie in trying,
Why do you fear me?

Why can't you see?
There's neither blame nor forgiveness
Be strong by being susceptible,
And don't quail; your frankness is your strength
And shows their weakness

I'm / Your waiting for the perfect sign
To reveal what lies inside
There's no lie in trying
Why do you fear me?

Why should I fear you?
An open heart is just as confronting as honesty!

Why can't I forgive?
You must stop to condemn the past

Why can't this fear be my guide?
It will be your strength if you dare

There's no blame in my life
Nor forgiveness for the pain

I will show them!
Let them know who you are!
This is my/your perfect revelation

And here's a couple of my favorite motivational songs to speed you on your quest.

ReVamp - Million   (my favorite song... elegantly describes the way I feel about the nature of life in general)

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With one foot still in the past
With the other far ahead
In between the times go fast
Chase your life while living it

[...]

With memories like scars
Or beautiful memoirs
Fighting inner wars
The past can hurt and teach
With today within our reach

van Canto - Hearted    (sappy campy fun but really uplifting if you let yourself get into it)

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Yes I trust in myself
Feel strong and lighthearted
Destiny's calling
I will be there
Every task to be done
I'll carry out bravehearted
A mission to face?
I'll stand my ground
And in every night
You will shine lighthearted
This story may end
Another one will unfold
Story teller:
"For now this story shall end"

[Knight of Fools]

Aw. I'm glad you made this thread, I hadn't seen her announcement. It's eye-opening into my own situation, but I'm not sure if I possess that much will-power.

Good luck, Vector. <3

[Criptfeind]

So when is she coming back?

[Lysabild]

So when is she coming back?

Somewhere in between a few weeks and never.

[Vector]

So when is she coming back?

I'll probably come say something when I graduate, and I might come back when I get into grad school.

[kaenneth]

Not to be a dick, but under the category of 'goodbye songs' here's one I've been listening to quite a bit recently.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dwimhjXkS88

 

But sincerely, You'll be missed for however long you're gone, and I hope you'll return soon.

[Criptfeind]

So when is she coming back?

I'll probably come say something when I graduate, and I might come back when I get into grad school.

how long is graduation?
or is that information [REDACTED]?

That is a good question. I would guess based on age and posts about subject it must only be a few years away correct?

[Vector]

Year and a half.  After that... probably a year or two until I get into grad school...

*sigh*

Life is exhausting.  It's a good feeling, though.

[MaximumZero]

This place is never gonna be the same, Vec. Stop in once in a while to tell us how you're doing, at least?

[Caz]

Be sure to come back in a few years and tell us how you're doing. It's not like we ever talked but I enjoyed reading your posts very much. I predict Bay12 will now turn into a 4chan cesspit.

Viva la Vector!

[Heron TSG]

Hopefully I'll still be around to welcome you back, friend Vector. It'd be nice to hear from you on occasion in the interim, though. Maybe as part of your post-testing video game binges?

[Eidolon]

I haven't actually talked to you much at all, Vector, but I've been lurking for a long time, and your posts have always been fantastic.

I remember something you wrote in a Life Advice thread. Forgive me if I've butchered it, but you were talking about the discouragement you felt at one time during your math courses, how you felt you weren't smart enough, or diligent enough. You mentioned how everyone successful had felt like that at some point, and you realized that none of them were in it to make themselves feel smarter or more superior than others, they were in it because there was something beautiful tying everything together, and what they were learning in that course brought them closer to understanding it. I don't think you meant this in any sort of spiritual sense or anything, just a simple observation of beauty.

Anyways, it was exactly what I needed to read at the time, whether or not that was what you intended. Good luck, hope you find what you're looking for.

[G-Flex]

Be sure to come back in a few years and tell us how you're doing. It's not like we ever talked but I enjoyed reading your posts very much. I predict Bay12 will now turn into a 4chan cesspit.

Viva la Vector!

I don't mean to be a wet blanket, but is it wrong of me to predict it'll basically be almost exactly the same? Plenty of users have come and gone over the years. This is less to trivialize her posting, and more to trivialize the posting of any single individual in a community this large.

[Max White]

No you don't understand! Vector is really a travelling internet gipsy, and she carries a great and legendary artefact, the orb of intellect! At well as a very impressive +8 to the holders INT score, it has a passive aura that causes all near the holder to act in a calm and civilised manner. Without that artefact, we are doooomed!