OH MY FUCKING GOD SHE JUST CAME IN AND HAD ME TO AGREE TO BRINGING UP A DISCUSSION NEXT TIME SHE DISMISSES ME WITH "THAT'S NOT TRUE," AS OPPOSED TO HER NEEDING TO PUT THE EFFORT IN TO CHANGE HER BEHAVIOR ON HER OWN, BECAUSE SHE CAN'T SLEEP
SAID "WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL ME MORE ABOUT WHAT YOU KNOW," (APPARENTLY SO THAT, ONCE AGAIN, SHE RETAINS THE POWER TO BE DISMISSIVE IF SHE'S JUDGED THAT I'M WORTH DISMISSING)
SHE EVEN WENT AND DID ONLINE RESEARCH TO SEE IF SHE COULD POSSIBLY HAVE CORRECTLY DISMISSED ME IN THE EXAMPLE I BROUGHT UP EARLIER TODAY
TURNS OUT THAT I ACTUALLY DID GET A DEGREE FROM UC BERKELEY AND NO, THERE IS NOT ANY CONTROVERSY WHATSOEVER ON THAT SUBJECT, OR ANY SUPPORT FOR AN OPPOSING ARGUMENT YOU CAN DREDGE UP
CAN YOU TAKE ANY LESS RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS YOU ASSHOLE
I WROTE DOWN THE AGREEMENT BECAUSE I NEED TO HAVE A PIECE OF PAPER SAYING WHAT SHE AGREED TO, OR ELSE SHE'S GOING TO BE LIKE "WHY ARE YOU PICKING ON ME" WHEN IT ROLLS AROUND; AND EVEN WITH THIS I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT THAT SHE'S GOING TO IGNORE OUR AGREEMENT NEXT TIME IT'S INCONVENIENT. THIS IS JUST SO I HAVE PAPER EVIDENCE FOR MY OWN WELLBEING AND SHE CAN'T GASLIGHT ME ANYMORE.
"YOU NEVER BROUGHT THAT UP BEFORE"
LIKE THIS TIME, BECAUSE I SAID SHE'D HURT ME, LITERALLY JUST THAT, VERBATIM, SHE'S LIKE "YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY I'M A HORRIBLE PERSON, NORMALLY A PERSON WOULD JUST PRETEND THAT IT HAD ONLY HAPPENED ONCE, EVEN IF IT HAD HAPPENED OVER AND OVER. YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO SAY I'M ON NOTICE."
STOP MAKING IT ABOUT YOU. I LITERALLY JUST SAID THAT YOU'D HURT ME AND I WANTED YOU TO STOP. WHAT THE HELL.
THIS IS SO FUCKING BASIC. I DIDN'T JUST SAY "YOU'RE HURTING MY FEELINGS, PLEASE STOP." I WENT OVER DIFFERENT SITUATIONS AND HOW SHE COULD REACT IN EACH ONE, REMINDING HER THAT IF WHAT SHE WANTS IS MORE CONVERSATIONS, LIKE SHE SAYS, THEN HERE IS A GREAT OPPORTUNITY FOR HER TO TURN A ONE-LINER INTO A CONVERSATION. I SYMPATHIZED WITH HER CONCERNS, I TOLD HER THAT THIS IS NOT ABOUT HER INTENTIONS, AND SO ON AND SO FUCKING FORTH, AND SHE JUST NEEDS MORE AND MORE AND MORE CONCESSIONS UNTIL THERE'S BASICALLY NO AGREEMENT LEFT.
WHAT THE FUCK.