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[Gentlefish]

This pony menaces with spikes.

But yeah, it's something that's only just cropped up and I definitely don't want it to become rooted in my psyche.

[Kagus]

Just bailed from church because I attended a concert last night and couldn't stop thinking about active shooter situations. Now I'm feeling less panicky and more like an idiot. I really don't want this to become full-blown agoraphobia.

I'm booked for a stadium concert in Poland next year. I'm anxious about lots of things related to that, like going through the ordeal of packing and going through the ordeal of flying somewhere, and accommodations, and language barriers and all that good stuff... But honestly haven't given much thought to active shooter situations.

Although, considering it's a Rammstein concert, I'm probably more at risk of getting shot at from the stage than from the crowd.

[bloop_bleep]

Just bailed from church because I attended a concert last night and couldn't stop thinking about active shooter situations. Now I'm feeling less panicky and more like an idiot. I really don't want this to become full-blown agoraphobia.

I'm booked for a stadium concert in Poland next year. I'm anxious about lots of things related to that, like going through the ordeal of packing and going through the ordeal of flying somewhere, and accommodations, and language barriers and all that good stuff... But honestly haven't given much thought to active shooter situations.

Although, considering it's a Rammstein concert, I'm probably more at risk of getting shot at from the stage than from the crowd.

Gentlefish is 'Murrican, I think, so given recent events (and not so recent events, and continuous events for many years now) he has more reason to worry about it than you do. 

[Gentlefish]

Yep, definitely from the land of Freedom and weekly mass shootings. I live in a pretty quiet town but I just couldn't get the thought out of my head today.

[Hanslanda]

Yep, definitely from the land of Freedom and weekly mass shootings. I live in a pretty quiet town but I just couldn't get the thought out of my head today.

Me too. It's why I carry. It wouldn't actually help me, it's a steel deathspitting safety blanket.

[LordBaal]

I'm sick again. Probably working under rain didn't help a lot. I'm sick of being sick every two or three months. I should eat better and get more sleep perhaps? But that's for pancies and capitalist pigs obly.

Was talking with my sister and suddenly list track of time. Next thing I know she's asking me what the hell I'm talking about, apparently I started saying there were trash bags everywhere in the living or something. That happens to me when the fever strikes. Felling better now, there's no other way, I need that appointment.

[Eschar]

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[Rolan7]

My dad can't hold down food.  He's choking his way through pneumonia.

I keep wanting to compare it to my experience last year.
But I'm really just terrified that it's happening to him.  I don't want to think about it.
Much less that it happens to countless people every year.

Sad:  People are currently drowning in their own mucus.  I faced and lived through the trial, and maybe I will again soon, but fuck - what kind of life is this?  A yearly tax of feverish horror...

I fight through it personally, but it's horrifying.

[Kagus]

I had walking pneumonia twice during my time in the military. And since the first time happened during boot period when I still believed that the officers were actually as in control of the situation as they claimed to be, I ended up doing the teargas test while still fighting the infection.

I managed to not puke, surprisingly enough.


Heh, I still remember hacking up a nearly golfball-sized wad of semisolid phlegm while on my way to the mess. Took me to my knees, that one did.

[LordBaal]

Fucking fever. Ducking appointment. I'm not going to work today.

[Telgin]

Yeah, but this has been going on for like 8 years now so I'm reasonably sure Mad Cow Disease or CJD would have been fatal a long time ago and probably have had other symptoms.

It's definitely a symptom of depression, but it's a thing that's affected me for close to a decade now, whether depressed or not.  I wonder if going 2-3 years with significant chronic sleep deprivation can cause permanent brain damage.

Should be noted that extended periods of insufficient sleep (not even complete lack, just insufficient) can cause irreparable issues. IIRC your memory can become worse and you become more ADHD-esque.

Boy, that does feel familiar.  I'm screwed.  Guess I can at least try to keep it from getting any worse, but I just added a reminder on my phone because I forgot to do something when I got home last night... and the only way I'm going to remember is if the phone tells me.

[misko27]

Yeah, but this has been going on for like 8 years now so I'm reasonably sure Mad Cow Disease or CJD would have been fatal a long time ago and probably have had other symptoms.

It's definitely a symptom of depression, but it's a thing that's affected me for close to a decade now, whether depressed or not.  I wonder if going 2-3 years with significant chronic sleep deprivation can cause permanent brain damage.

Should be noted that extended periods of insufficient sleep (not even complete lack, just insufficient) can cause irreparable issues. IIRC your memory can become worse and you become more ADHD-esque.

Well that's just fine.

Who needs memory anyway.

[Kagus]

Yeah, but this has been going on for like 8 years now so I'm reasonably sure Mad Cow Disease or CJD would have been fatal a long time ago and probably have had other symptoms.

It's definitely a symptom of depression, but it's a thing that's affected me for close to a decade now, whether depressed or not.  I wonder if going 2-3 years with significant chronic sleep deprivation can cause permanent brain damage.

Should be noted that extended periods of insufficient sleep (not even complete lack, just insufficient) can cause irreparable issues. IIRC your memory can become worse and you become more ADHD-esque.

Well that's just fine.

Who needs memory anyway.

These days you can just download more of it anyways.

[Gentlefish]

Ah yes. Let's download some WAM

[Rolan7]

I just got invited to a discord dedicated to making "cum tributes" to raid a female youtuber's channel tomorrow.  I poked my head in to try to see like... why that would happen.  I was just going to lurk but someone asked who I was, and demanded they needed help not lurkers.  So I told them they needed therapy.  "Moralfag detected" like that's an insult but w/e

It was like a hundred people, why... just why?  I asked before they banned me, and apparently it's "for the lulz" and "to let her know we exist".  Pretty telling, huh.

The lady has an issue with self-image, only face revealed one time at the end of a video discussing said anxiety.  She's an artist who draws and animates her avatar for her videos.  And there is like... SO much porn of said avatar.  I don't get it.  It's basically a shyguy (which there is plenty of porn of too) except that it's a shyguy associated with a real human being with social anxiety.

And I never got the impression that porn was made viciously, people seemed fairly nice about it really.  It's still fucking weird and creepy, and obviously something she doesn't want, but I thought they meant well.

But then this.  Fuck, I just don't understand anymore.  They even renamed it from a raid to a "crusade for Jaiden" but they're gloating over how she'll "have to address it" because they're going to false-flag her videos after she bans them.

I guess I'm kinda mad but I'm more sick and confused.