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[Descan]

A lot of is literally just misconceptions and misinformation, coupled with "HEY DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME I'M WRONG."

Like the idea that sex is completely and 100% purely chromosomes. Nevermind the fact that XY can express female and XX can express male, or the people who have different arrangements entirely, but... Last I checked, my doctor didn't wait until a DNA test came in to pronounce me male? He just looked and went "Eh, I guess it's kinda dick-shaped."

Hormones, brain structure to an extent (I think the jury is still out on that), organ arrangement, all these are different indicators of sex, and honestly the only time it matters in the end is when it comes to pregnancy and medical issues.

While a lot of it is just misconceptions, there are those who even when we master genetic manipulation to the point where we can change the chromosomal arrangement in all of your somatic cells to be XX or XY, a lot of these people are STILL going to find a reason to go "BUT YOU'RE NOT REEEEEALLY A WOMAN!"

It's the people who are actually willing to listen and change their mind based on the evidence and, frankly, based on the "who the fuck cares what they identify with, why is your identity bound up in there's so much that you gotta rant about it?" factor that I think are actually worth talking to.

[AzyWng]

Someone came to the door. I looked, went to bring Mom.

Guy was dark-skinned, and he didn't like the fact I went to get Mom, and refused to talk to us.

He seemed to think it was a race thing, despite the fact that I always do this.

[Robot Parade Leader]

Anybody who has a problem with somebody getting their parent is wrong.

In other news, I got yelled at today for something that absolutely wasn't my fault. I don't even want to think about it, but I really needed to bitch a little about it.

[Boltgun]

Cat has been getting IV at the vet for 3 days already, we decided to give it 3 more days to see if his creatinine goes down. He's only 7 (with me for only one year), which is too early for kidney failure.

Only this morning my wife realized what it meant.

[Boatsniper]

Today is Monty Oum's birthday. He would have been 35 years old.

Go do something, anything, creative today, for yourself, a loved one, the world, or just because you want to. Let your creative spirit run wild, and your greater dreams will be achieved. Maybe not today, tomorrow, or in your own lifetime, but any effort you put into something will forever transcend yourself, for there is no futility, even in death.

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Be yourself today, and keep moving forward.

[BlackFlyme]

Every leech is coming out of the woods to take advantage of my step-grandfather's death.

My nan is getting a lot of calls from different places asking questions about a will, any cars or furniture, claiming they're owed money, asking for personal banking information, and all sorts of other scummy things. How do they even find this shit out about people?

And the ashes came back. Not as we asked or paid for. They came in clear zip-lock bag in a plain cardboard box. Fucking rude.

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugpats everybody*

[Shook]

Hrm, i'm rather tired right now (which is not unexpected), which is probably fucking with my mood as usual, but i sometimes find myself wondering if there's something wrong or outright broken deep down inside me. Like, i've managed to build a decent-looking structure on top of a cracked base of support, and at some point it might all come crashing down rather spectacularly if i don't manage to keep it together. It also kind of shows whenever i try to imagine what my "essence" would look like: a mostly white wispy ball with a nasty black splotch on it. It ALSO kind of showed during group therapy: We were doing an exercise where we, with closed eyes, would imagine/visualize taking all the anxiety and accompanying feelings out of ourselves, and having a good look at it. What i saw was a half-rotten, pulsating cancer tumor the size of a soccer ball. Out of all the visualizations of various aspects of myself that i've thought about, that is BY FAR the nastiest.

I'm pretty damn sure that i wasn't born like that. As mom says, i used to be a happy, outgoing and energetic kid with friends that i'd both visit and get visited by. Sure, i was also naive and prone to not considering what would happen when i did things, but that's not unusual for kids. I'm still a decently happy and optimistic dude for the most part, but "outgoing" and "energetic" have damn near been stripped from my personality, and likewise have i not been super hot on the idea of visiting or being visited ever since leaving the hell of elementary school. I think one major turning point in that regard was when one of my (now former) good friends suddenly decided to betray me and switch sides, becoming one of the biggest assholes in the class towards me. There are many things that i'm willing to forgive in due time, but that? That just hurt too much, and all the fun we've had together only made it so much worse. The number of people i've voluntarily brought into my home since then can be counted on one hand (add two to that number if you count "has seen my house in person"). I guess i'm just afraid of being stabbed in the back again if i let people get too close to me (... plus i'm a bad host, but that's beside the point).

I'm also irrationally scared of fucking up. I mean sure, not many people like fucking up, but to me it's often so bad that i'd rather not attempt the thing to begin with, or, if i initially did well with the thing but then fucked up, i'll be scared of trying again. I'd say that this boils down to my usual fear of rejection, but the fact is that i'm afraid of fucking up even with my own things that aren't necessarily even going to be seen by others. I'm EVEN MORE afraid of fucking up on things that are actually for other people, because then it's not just me suffering under my potential failure. It's crippling, it's really fucking crippling. How am i supposed to get ahead in this world if i'm so afraid of failure? :/

and now i shall go to bed because way too tired to keep rambling

[Orange Wizard]

Like the idea that sex is completely and 100% purely chromosomes.

It's the only thing left that progressives can't point to and say, "it's just a social construct!"

...

Anyway, my sad is that my sleeping patterns are completely out of whack; I'm perpetually tired.

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugs Shook, fires pillow cannon at OW*

[Descan]

Like the idea that sex is completely and 100% purely chromosomes.

It's the only thing left that progressives can't point to and say, "it's just a social construct!"

*shrug* I said my piece, it's up to you to read it. I'm not going to write it again.

[BFEL]

Playing KSP.
Trying to get money to put together Duna mission.

Build "station" for Minmus orbit that is basically a five kerbal lander with some extra bits.

Halfway to Minmus.
Sun is eclipsed by Kerbin.
No power.
TAC life support, so no power for too long= fission mailed.
Kerbin shows no signs of moving the fuck out of the way.
Five most senior Kerbals on ship.
ARGLBARGLE

EDIT: It worked out in the end, but damn that was tense.

[Kot]

It took me like 30 minutes after returning home and civilization with internet connection to want to kill myself again. I should seriously maybe remove my Facebook account or something.
Honestly I sometimes just get an urge to just... fuck off. Move somewhere far, severe all connections and just fade into non-existence... or maybe fake mental ilness or even get one for real if it's somehow possible. Not knowing is so much better.

[Furtuka]

Learned some of the sadder parts of my family history today.

[Shook]

*hugs Shook, fires pillow cannon at OW*

Thanks bro. I also felt a lot better after sleeping, so that's nice. c:

Alas, another thing has come to plague me, or rather, two: Heat and humidity. It's about 19 degrees Celcius outside right now (which is fairly warm for 10:30PM), and the humidity is so high that you can see your breath, and evaporating water from the recent torrential downpour creates sort of a thin mist everywhere. It's acceptable when you're not doing anything, but as soon as physical activity starts, it gets so hot that both me and my brother ended up feeling lightheaded after pre-emptively doing tomorrows distribution. Tomorrow? Same level of humidity, but the temperature will probably hit 27, hence why we did the majority of the work today. That's going to be absolutely dreadful.
At least it seems like it'll peter out within the next few days, and next week it'll be back down to regular Danish summer temperatures, where i won't have to worry about heat stroke.