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[TheBiggerFish]

Seriously, 90%?

[Arx]

Man, here I am again, controlling the urge to self-harm. Kind of ironic - the scars have barely faded. I doubt I'll descend that far, at least not tonight. But it's bad. I'm supposed to be past this, dammit. This isn't supposed to be such an issue. I've cut back on stressing, I have productive hobbies I enjoy, I'm even on a mild antidepressant, and it's not like I've been failing to exercise.

I guess I'll make it out the other end, like I always have. And maybe I'll even be stronger for it. But man do I wish I didn't have to.

Anyway, /ramble.

[TheBiggerFish]

*applies (platonic) hugs*

Stay strong, okay, Arx?

If I can help with anything, distractions, whatever, let me know.

[Kot]

We should play vidya from time to time... or something.

[Rolan7]

I basically blew the weekend being in a sleepy daze, no response from boss, except today he asked us to turn in our work (the work that took me 30 sleepless hours to get done)
I'm pretty fucking drunk for it being almost 5PM.  That's what I do when my requests for basic oversight go ignored, I guess.

I did tell him on Friday that I had everything almost ready but that I needed clarification.  Via two channels.  Still no response on that, just this teamwide message "get the results to me".

Well I guess that's how it is.  So I'll make my best guesses when making the report.  I'd say I don't care about doing it right but it's really the main thing I care about these days...  Since my dad...  Did or didn't disinherit me, left it so vague.  On purpose, he knew exactly what he was doing to me.

Dad's real sick right now, with a flu.  Can't get out of bed, his girlfriend's taking care of him.  I hope he gets better soon, and someday gets his head out of his ass.  Or maybe he finally succumbs to all his bad health decisions and I get to truly move on.  He lived an adventurous and exciting life of sex and drugs, it wouldn't be a tragedy if he only lived to 70-ish.  Better than most of his kind got.

I do also feel better from hanging out with my friends, but there's a shitload of harsh drama there right now.  Which happens.
And coming up I'm going to have to visit my mom's side again, and the dread of that is just tearing me up.

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugpat*

It'll be okay.

[Rolan7]

Thanks, and I'm sure my boss is just busy.  He has kids and a wife and other normal-person concerns I thankfully don't have to deal with, because I structured my life to focus on things *I* find important or interesting.

As for my dad, I don't need him.  I found that out the hard way, years ago.  Recent events are... really hurting him more than they hurt me.

Well...  They hurt me emotionally a lot.  They hurt his legacy.  Fucking moron.

[TheBiggerFish]

*applies more (platonic) hugs anyway*

Just in case.

[Spehss _]

Man, here I am again, controlling the urge to self-harm. Kind of ironic - the scars have barely faded. I doubt I'll descend that far, at least not tonight. But it's bad. I'm supposed to be past this, dammit. This isn't supposed to be such an issue. I've cut back on stressing, I have productive hobbies I enjoy, I'm even on a mild antidepressant, and it's not like I've been failing to exercise.

I've cut back on stressing

Bit of a pun, given the context.

Good luck with that, Arx. I think you can resist the urge. I believe in you. You can do the thing.

[Sirus]

Something like 90% of the US population has one form of herpes or another. Not catching it is a matter of pure luck.

wait what

Surely that's a typo of some sort.

[Tawa]

Something like 90% of the US population has one form of herpes or another. Not catching it is a matter of pure luck.

wait what

Surely that's a typo of some sort.

These are herpes too

[Vector]

-snip-

[TheBiggerFish]

Yeah. That's what I've got. I'm immune to the other kind (thanks, EXTREMELY PAINFUL VACCINE), but I've got lots of little bumps now :V

*would pat, but doesn't want to catch it through the Internet (somehow)*
(I'm kidding.  *pats*)
Get well soon.

[penguinofhonor]

Interesting... I was told that both kinds of herpes viruses were similar enough that antibodies against one would work against the other. And articles I'm looking up on herpes vaccines seem to suggest the same thing.

[Vector]

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