So,well, is getting rid of feelings altogether an option?
Unfortunately no, I tried quite extensively the last time something like this happened, and that emotional attachment wasn't nearly as intense as this one is developing towards being.
Then if not, stop feeling guilty and go do something about one of those things. Any is fine. Seriously. Go. Do. Something.
I don't know why you are still reading... Go call her!
No, better yet, leave her for the time being, go make that damn paper!
It's quite early where I am right now, so calling her right now would only serve to either wake her up or get a voicemail
That said, I do talk with her quite frequently, and we're good friends outside of the unrequited attraction thing, which hasn't even come into the picture as I've been pretty good at concealing it, and if I have my way it won't come up ever since she's quite in love with her significant other and I'm not gonna try to fuck that up, partially because it wouldn't work and mostly because it'd be a horrifically douchey thing to do, from my point of view at the least. I don't think there's much I can do in regard to that scenario besides practice repression and do a lot of karate after hanging out with her.
As for the paper...............
I really should. I've spent a few days just staring at a word document for several hour stretches trying to make myself write it. But laziness.
I say I've no motivation to do it as if it's some psychological issue, but really deep down I just don't want to do it, don't fear the consequences of failing the class since it won't result in people yelling at/hitting me, and I'm really good at weaselling out of things I don't want to do. Only reason I'm still putting up the pretense of putting in effort is because my sense of shame compels me to.
Thank you for the encouragement though!
All their stuff is bout stabbing in a not-sexy way. So it should help.
I dunno, stabbing in itself is a sexual act if you think about it the right way. CURSE YOU FREUD
I'll look them up though.