After a conversation with my mum, I apparently used to be an extrovert, up until I started getting bullied. Seems the bullying knocked it out of me. Apparently, I used to be the first one to introduce myself, did lots of talking with other people, so on and so forth.
Why the fuck did I have to be put in a school where bullying was punished with 'Don't do it again! Now, off you pop!'?
Yeah, me too. I was the most ENERGETIC HAPPY EXTROVERTED CHILD EVER. Until I changed schools.
Just like me!
Same here. I used to be happy as a clam, and naively trust everyone, on a near-constant basis. Nowadays, I assume any friends I make are just a step closer to stabbing me in the back. Associate or nothing; I don't have close or best friends for reasons of my past friends sucked big time; I was always in trouble, and they didn't help at all. In fact, in hindsight, after some other new info, I suspect they were the ringleaders. My best friend out-ranked my bully, and my bully constantly tormented me in front of him, and they did nothing. I think you'd draw the same conclusion as me; not to mention, when I had social troubles, like approaching a crush I had, my crush kept their distance from me as much as possible as if they heard only the negative about me; only a friend could get that close and use such information so easily. In essence, some 'good people' are worse than bad people; makes me choose Hell over Heaven for familiarity's sake, and my bullies I have to out-think and out-perform to get back at them before they strike as hard as I predict.
Simply put, Super-Villain Mode activated when nobody helped the victim(s); so I help other victims by finding the hardest most armor-piercing method to apply (with hollow-point post-piercing) to any bully, and strike with extreme prejudice, in turn making me more of a bully than any of the bullies I've witnessed and been struck by would ever aspire to being. Basically, I've become a heroic villain; I do good by doing bad to balance the scales, or at least force them to balance and weld it in place.
I'm just extremist material, ain't I? At least I lack the motivation to (anti-)terrorize to such an extent I would hit the most-wanted list. I got the brains, but not the means nor motivation; plus, last thing I would want to do is demonize my family's name by my actions. Kinda sucks that I can't do anything entirely because of such consequences. If I could destroy the world, I would, but I can't. As evil as I want to be, I can't because of my loyalty to the only other people I CAN trust with my life. Thanks society for converting another would-be saint into another run-of-the-mill sinner (so to put it, Society as an entity would be my main target, and to collapse it into a constant global war on every front/reason would be the solution; executing it would require being omniscient, however; or be part of a secret globalist organization (like the Freemasons and/or Illuminati, Scientologists) to pull it off, and collapse their organization on the way out for kicks, and to punish them for (being dumb enough) allowing someone like me amongst their numbers, and for anything else I would learn about them from within).
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