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[Neonivek]

Clearly without words that means music has no interpretation and saying anything about them is just digging too deep.

[MaximumZero]

Holy shit... So Mick Jagger is the devil?

This has ever been in question?

[Flying Dice]

Holy shit... So Mick Jagger is the devil?

This has ever been in question?

Not if you've ever watched Rock and Roll Circus.

[Lysabild]

Anyone else frequenting this forum who have this also?

The symptoms, at least most of it does fit me rather well, I guess, and my psychiatrist diagnosed me, and I'm to go to a really important meeting with this youth thingy for young mentally ill. But I just have a hard time telling if something IS wrong with me or.. I don't know, it's hard to explain.

For a long time I've been scared of being sick and scared of not being sick. Now I AM diagnosed as being sick and now I'm scared they're not right. If OPUS (The youth thing mentioned above.) should decide I am not sick like after some months or something, I'd probably end up on the street, because I'm incapable of keeping a job or education, at least in my current state of being unable to even get out my door to go and shop for food and drink.

But being sick is killing the self-confidence I don't even have to begin with even more. I'll never be able to help anyone if I never get better and that just kills everything I ever wanted to be.

I've never considered suicide really honestly, because I'm too curious to die. I want to know what happens tomorrow, no matter how trivial. But I've often sat in my window trying to get the courage to jump out anyway, because if I ruin my body completely, I'd have something physical to deal with, instead of this nagging feeling of people thinking I'm just making it up when I sit here in my trash staring at the wall without any contact to other people for weeks.

I don't even know where I'm going with this I just feel awful right now and that meeting the 17th is just panicking me even more and I'm totally stressed out because it's my mothers birthday tomorrow.

I also feel really bad about how many money I get monthly just for being jobless and sick, I don't feel I deserve them in any capacity, so I'm trying to spend them on stuff like donations and stuff that goes into the economies.

Saving is bad for the economy, more so than lack of jobs.

Or so I tell myself to feel better, I'm not an economist so I can't -really- know, but it seems logical.

This rant sucks.

[Skyrunner]

o_O

* Skyrunner pats Lysabild

Also, about the saving: Saving on an individual basis is perfectly sound and also a pretty good choice, since you got a money buffer to fall back on in times of need.

Saving on a national basis, where many hundreds of thousands of millions of people save and not spend (read: Japan) is bad for the economy. It's not helping Japan out

Disclaimer, not economist either. ;3

[Spaghetti7]

Aw.

* Spaghetti7 hugs Lysabild

Can't really say much that'll help. I hope that rant at least let you get it out. Oh, and don't worry about that meeting. What is there to worry about? All they want to do is help, and they will understand. It's their job, after all.

[Trapezohedron]

* New Guy hugs Lysabild

Dude, I really wish I could help you. :/

But I find your reasoning for not considering suicide really odd (in a positive light), because usually, people don't do suicide because they fear death instead of being curious about life.

Anyway, don't worry about that meeting, dude.

[Euld]

* Euld hugs Lysabild

I believe you.

...instead of this nagging feeling of people thinking I'm just making it up when I sit here in my trash staring at the wall without any contact to other people for weeks.

I have a brother who has similar symptoms sometimes.  But the fact you're able to tell us clearly what's going on, and the fact you're able to consider getting help is a very good sign.  It means medication will probably make a big difference.  I definitely vote for getting help and medication to help bring some normalcy to your life.

[Dutchling]

Relevant

[kaijyuu]

Relevant

Doesn't work if you know their words are empty and just meant to make you feel better

[Euld]

Depression is irrational.  Your own mind suddenly decides everything is worse than it appears, when in fact you have a lot of good to be thankful for and all the bad things aren't as awful as they seem.

[Jopax]

http://thenicestplaceontheinter.net/

Those hugs are real enough, and greatly helping at times

In sad talk, I've been feeling rather heavy today, you know that crushing suffocating feeling in your chest, not sure where it comes from but I don't like it one bit, hopefully I'll be able to art it away.

[Truean]

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[Xantalos]

So, I'm quitting the gig with this other lawyer I've wanted to work with for years now. It's burning me out, not that I had long to go necessarily in that manner, but....

I told him I don't practice the area of law he wants me to. He said I could pick it up/he'd teach me. It's just not as simple as he says it is, and I can't pump out results like he wants in an area I'm unfamiliar with.

This is going to be awkward and hard.

Resisting ... urge ... to slip ... in a Freudain fashion ...

[Vector]

Ugh.  I have a horrid sunburn.