Don't be too quick to call yourself weak. Strength takes on many forms; in most cases, it's not something that you have, but something that you choose; the way you decide to react to difficulty. I don't consider myself particularly strong, but I know how to "pace myself" emotionally, when dealing with difficult things. A lot of times, this might look like apathy- and maybe it can be- but much like the body fatigues when overworked, you sometimes need emotional distance to "rest", when dealing with adversity.
Only time will tell.
As I said, I'll be busy for the next few days, but afterwards I'll try to actively do things.
Like tackling a book called "Basic problems of Philosphy" (not quite the right title, but translating it literally would make it sound stupid), which I've been told is the book for beginning philosophy students.
Also I should re-read "The Universe in a Nutshell" and "A Brief History of Time", as well as all the Terry Pratchett books in english.
Finally look for a drawing tutorial. Learning how to draw in "free form"-mode doesn't work for me. I need some guidelines and exercises.
Then I have to figure out what study course is the right one for me. The choic isn't easy and I don't plan on screwing up like the last time I had to pick a school.
Also, the fact that my only two female friends have suddenly hooked up with guys and will probably be spending the next however long they're dating giving me relationship advice kind of irritates me.
Been there. These situations can be quite irritating.
Lucky that in my current close circle of friends nearly everyone is single and the one who isn't has a girlfriend, which I perceive as pretty manly.
As they don't seem to kiss in public and don't talk about more private matters, it seems pretty manageable.