I've ever had before this chick changes her god damned mind and hates me again.
Wait, did she actually say she had anything against you, or just what you conveyed in the first paragraph?
Because I've been her and done that, more than once. And never because I hated the other person - moreso because I hated myself, or the world, or because I was scared... probably a combination of all of those. And while I'm technically Bipolar, yes, I don't think that had all that much to do with it as much as a long history of suppressing my expectations and depression and general raging against the world as a whole for how little control I actually had over my life and the sureness that simply by being around Iw as making things worse for other people... at least for me, it was all sorts of complicated. A confluence of factors that led to me just wanting to break from the world because its better for both me and them. And having something GOOD happen was often enough to finally push me over the edge, strangely.
But DOING it was usually an immense relief - for a while after, it actually felt like I was really in control of what was happening, and they usually ended up being some really happy days because I was living on my own terms. Except when they were terrible, of course, which was about half the time.
Fuck, nevermind, I don't even know if any of this is applicable to her, it just sounds so incredibly familiar.
I'm just glad the wife "settled" for me, considering how fucked up I am all told.
Yes. Sounds a lot like what I've read from her body language and our exchange of information regarding history, exes, and general life. She's had 3 boyfriends who all wound up being ultra-controlling, obsessive assholes, the last one being the pansy yet obsessive douchebag who made her life living hell, tried to get her to marry him because he wanted kids, and then followed her to Peru when she broke up with him for being Creepy McDouchebag. All 3 were older than her, so her being 22 and me being 20, I'm (as usual) the super-mature (according to her and others apparently) youngin'.
Chyeah, sexually-experienced older (slightly) women ftw! Even better that she's had clingy exes, means she's not some derptard who's had one boyfriend and is ridiculously naive.
Funny, I was hoping sometime in the next 5 years I'd find a 22-25 yr old goth babe, preferably petite with nice sensual curves, who's into the same music as me, frequents the same places, and has a personality that parallels my ridiculously specific requirements.
I go "yeah, not happening. You know what, I'm going to focus on ME and my development."
Bam. Well, hello there, super good-looking petite hispanic goth chick with a banging body who creepily shares my most obscure musical tastes (as in shit you can't even find online, or if you can, its one youtube song from albums worth of material and has like 150 views because no one's ever even heard of the bastards), lives literally 3 blocks away from me (hence why we've been hanging out every night from 10-11 PM to 2-3 AM), and has just the *right* kind of baggage.
As long as she doesn't go psycho-bitch on me, I should be alright.
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