From the journal of Jools Machinescalded
Migrursut is a... strange place. In amongst all the bullying and bickering, the wrangling and warmongering, there is a strange kind of normality that prevails. Whilst we live in a harsh, hostile location, surrounded on all sides by undead beasts and murderous goblins (to say nothing of the foes within the walls), we manage to live. Though many dwarves die, and whole waves of migrants or caravans can be lost to some unknown death in the sands, you can still see the same characters living the same lives, carrying on with their duties or interests as if somehow sheltered from the maelstrom of violence about us.
Even for the military, this normally rings true. Though we may lose a few foolhardy recruits who charge off into battle, heedless of tactics or reason, and the speardwarves make the ultimate sacrifice so often required by their dangerous profession (itself a part of normal fort life), every day we see many heroes who have taken up the task of defending us, and survived battle after battle against everything from kobolds to demons. Sulari, who has grown from being first into battle to directing the defense of the fort. Merkil, a more recent hero, now so respected among the fort. The formerly late Sergeant Towersacks. Likot, for all her sins. Snake.
Snake.
No more. Snake Splitskin, someone with a past shadier than the deepest unlit cavern, probably banished from more forts than he had fingers remaining (including, briefly, our own), who came to us looking out for little more than his own hide, has fallen in defence of the fort. An ambush, out in the wastes, of two of our haulers - Snake saw this, and seeing no alternative, leapt to their defence, sacrificing his own life to save theirs. One can ask no more of a dwarf. He was truly a donkey of our military.
He may not have had made many friends during his time here, but I shall remember him. He fought to win, and survive, but as time passed he grew to understand that his survival was dependent upon the survival of others, and he was often found saving lives on the battlefield and protecting his squadmates. He stepped in to quell unrest between the various military groupings in the fort, and even tolerated civilians (unlike some of the military). He even bought me some ale once.
For all this, he will be remembered with honour. May his soul rest with Zefon until it rises again in a new body.
Now, I must join the others and honour him in the timeless fashion of dwarves - by getting a skull-throbbing hangover.
Next day
It is the day after the wake for Snake Splitskin. As the pounding headache from the previous night receded, I rose from my bed and stumbled over something as I headed towards the door.
A sword.
It isn't Snake's old one - I imagine Sulari will be keeping that. It isn't one of Kib's weapons. This is a crude thing of iron, uncared for like those of dwarves who have spent their lives in battle. There's no note attached, so I'm pretty sure it's not a gift - I must have picked it up last night from somewhere, thinking it a good idea.
I don't know why I did that. I've never felt my path through life involved the military before (other than that bit about marrying a warrior girl). I've always spent my time caring for things - dwarves, donkeys, animals, making crafts and food and hauling things. I just wanted to live in peace with donkeys - not much to ask. But it seems that in this life, or at least this fort, if we seek to create some utopia, some must fight to defend it, whatever the cost.
And yet I have no skill in these matters. I've... helped to ease the pain of some sick and dying animals, but never fought for my life before, or fought to take the life of another. Tactics and strategy are alien to me, and I would rather wish for a world where dwarves and goblins live in peace than for one where we live in castles built from goblin skulls.
And yet...
I can hear life in the fortress outside my room going on outside. The donkeys will be waiting for me. Will my old instincts kick in, and my path lead towards the Sanctuary? Or will I reach for the weapon, and start out down a new and dangerous path? The fort is without one of its strongest warriors, and a new wave must step forward to replace him (and, in time, they themselves will be replaced). Should I step forward in the defence of those I care about? Should I find some other way to try and protect the fort, by helping build walls and traps and defences? Or should I leave these matters to others, trusting that they will keep me safe, and spend my life caring for donkeys?
My fate lies balanced, like the sword before me.