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[tonnot98]

Just gonna drop off some problems here.

So just last weekend, my 14 year old self went to my friend Cameron's house. All was well and normal, I was just acting a little nervous or odd when next to his sister, Noelle whom I have a crush on.

Now, while that much is normal, what happened after playing "Sorry: Spongebob Edition" wasn't. I decided to ask where the shot glasses are, and that I'm going to take a shot of that Fireball Whiskey. Noelle decided to show me to a shot glass that was actually just a tiny bucket, and she poured me a drink. I knocked it back and said "Oh shit, that tastes exactly like the fucking cinnamon!" (We were also both doing the cinnamon challenge. I won, she hurled.) She started laughing, and brought me another drink. It was some coffee alcohol shaker thing that she didn't bother shaking. I decided "Why not?" and knocked it back. She then brought me a shot of rum, and I drank it. She brought me a shot of Tonic, and I dumped it in the sink, saying that it looked like diarrhea. She then brought me a shot of gin, and I drank it. Finally, she brought me a shot of vodka. I said "Oh shit, this is the real stuff now. I heard that you weren't supposed to drink vodka straight like that." She said "Oh just drink it!" And I did so. Well, atleast half of the shot. I dumped out the rest in the sink and said "Alright, I'm done, they were right! That shit tastes awful straight." Later that day, their dad suggested that we bike to 7/11 and buy slurpies. On the way there, I was extremely focused on not falling off the bike, as I was a bit inebriated, and didn't really go on bikes often at all. No problems there, but on the way back, I could barely taxi my bike across the street with the slurpy in my hand, so Noelle decided to take both her's and my slurpy to ride back. I saw it in her face and tone of voice that she was very disappointed.

When their dad drove me back to my house, that's when I realized how fucked up I am. Also, their parents didn't know that I drank anything, although Noelle almost told them twice. She's also been going through some emotional problems, where she would randomly start crying and yelling over small things, usually started by her step-mom. I think I should also mention that Cameron is annoying as hell, and is only her step-brother that barely considers them related.

I always get nervous around girls, and can never just be friends with them, as I end up getting attached and worried that they're not into me, and can't stop thinking about what's under their clothes. I have a fucked up mindset about most things, and keep daydreaming odd things, such as shit being destroyed, people being killed, or me being inside girls that I know. Today on the bus, a friend asked: "If your dad divorced your mom, and married another that had daughters, and they liked you, would it count as Incest?" I said: "Technically yes, but I'd be fine with it." "Yeah, but no blood or anything." "I'd be into it even if we were related by blood."

I have it all planned out and everything to be a burglar or car hopper as a plan B profession.

I know that I'd probably be classified as a Sociopath if I went to a counselor, and I don't want the world to legally see me as one, I want to only allow those who are in my immediate vicinity to see that. And you people, of course.

I also have a very bad work ethic. I procrastinate on almost everything. I passed 8th grade by a single point on the science final, and I'm smart too! I'm very smart, and that's how my parents are a bit disappointed in me, too. They probably expected me to be an honors student, not a kid that they'd have to go to the school because I got detention for not doing any homework. My procrastination is so bad, that I don't play with friends and talk to them on skype often, as I do not wish to be bothered or deal with people. It's so bad that I waited until the last day to finish a succession game, and I LOVE playing DF! It's so bad that I procrastinate in trying to find help or fixes for my procrastination.

I'm pretty sure I'd be classified as a Kleptomaniac, as I've been stealing things stealthily since Kindergarten, only being caught by people I trusted ratting me out, probably leading to my untrusting of people, and a bit of my paranoia.

Posting this here because I'm pretty much anonymous, and just wanted to express some mental hardships.

[Cheeetar]

I don't see how any of this makes you a 'sociopath'. Some of the things you do are pretty silly, but none of it is uh... Unusual for a human.

[tonnot98]

I don't see how any of this makes you a 'sociopath'. Some of the things you do are pretty silly, but none of it is uh... Unusual for a human.

May just be me overexaggerating, but still.

[Cheeetar]

Rest safely in the knowledge that it seems highly likely your personality is well within the bounds of normal human deviation.

[Caz]

Sociopaths don't make threads on whether they're sociopaths or not.


/thread

[tonnot98]

Rest safely in the knowledge that it seems highly likely your personality is well within the bounds of normal human deviation.

I shall, but these issues still pose as a roadblock to my happiness. Sometimes I just slow down considerably in school because I feel as if I really need a hug. Extreme spices fix this temporarily.

[Orange Wizard]

Don't worry. The wiki page for "sociopath" redirects to "psychopath", and you don't sound particularly psychopathic.

[Cheeetar]

You mentioned a counsellor- if your school provides one as a free service, it may be worth your time to go visit. Not because they'll diagnose you with something, just because they'll listen to you and care about what you're saying, and that's an incredibly nice feeling. I've heard good things from a school friend who visited my school's counsellor.

[LordBucket]

I have it all planned out and everything to be a burglar or car hopper as a plan B profession.

I recommend against this. In the days of ubiquitous video recording, remote vehicle tracking and kill switches, burglary and carjacking seem like terribly risky professions to me.

I'm pretty sure I'd be classified as a Kleptomaniac, as I've been stealing things stealthily since Kindergarten, only being caught by people I trusted ratting me out, probably leading to my untrusting of people, and a bit of my paranoia.

Ok, but here you are announcing your history and future plans to be a thief on a public message board with IP logging. So it's possible you might be too much of an attention whore, or perhaps simply not smart enough to be a criminal and not get caught.

Again, I advise against it.

If you really must be a criminal, don't engage in petty theft. Become a politician. It pays better, and is more likely to satisfy your apparent need for attention. And then when you inevitably get caught you can write a book about it and become rich.

[tonnot98]

You mentioned a counsellor- if your school provides one as a free service, it may be worth your time to go visit. Not because they'll diagnose you with something, just because they'll listen to you and care about what you're saying, and that's an incredibly nice feeling. I've heard good things from a school friend who visited my school's counsellor.

I'd rather talk to friends, but most of my friends aren't that great with what I tell them to be a secret, and it'd eventually reach Cameron, who would no doubt tell everyone in his goddamned blood line.

[Cheeetar]

There's no reason you can't become a friend with your counsellor, especially if you don't have to pay for it.

[Darkmere]

You aren't a sociopath. You're a bored, horny teenager. I'll come back with some better answers as soon as I figure out what I can actually say according to board policy.

EDIT: Alright, here's things about as blanket-PC as I can make them.

Re: classes. You sound bored with coursework. Well... that's kinda tough, the real world doesn't care how stimulated you are. Sorry, you'll have to work through it. BUT that would probably be a lot easier if you developed a hobby as a creative release of all the ideas bouncing around in your head. You sound like you'd be pretty good at something like that, and there's no real harm in trying everything you can get your hands on. Drawing, writing, and programming all have loads and loads of free resources online for your perusal, and it may turn into a career for you if you stick with it. Your choice, best of luck either way.

Re: girls*. Welcome to hormones. You'll get an earful about STD's from authority figures, and I'll skip that part. What no one tells you is how mind-blowingly complicated sex makes a relationship. That's not baggage you want to take on, soon. Do yourself a favor or three and just deal with the frustration "on your own terms" for a while. Years down the road, if you absolutely must... be safe about it. There is no stigma in being respectful of your and your partner's safety.

Re: booze. Yeah, you got shitfaced because you drank a ton on an empty stomach. The vodka was probably cheap, too, because the good stuff is pretty smooth in straight shots. That said... the consequences of underage drinking are pretty severe for all involved, so you should give that a few more years yet.

* - Yes, sex is a berserk button to just about everyone, but I think the oppressive abstinence policy is criminally ignorant and fosters much of the unhealthy western attitude that leads to teen pregnancies and many other troubles. That said, as I understand it what I wrote here is within bounds of what's allowed on the forum, but if anyone wants it down you can send me a PM and I'll remove it.

[4maskwolf]

Sociopaths don't make threads on whether they're sociopaths or not.


/thread

I honestly didn't read the entirety of the OP, but I'm going to disagree with this particular statement.  Sociopathy is defined as the inability to experience social responsibility and a conscience.  Sometimes I'm afraid that I am one, to be honest, but the feeling usually subsides.  I might have created a thread like this if I ever was in this portion of the forums for any portion of time.

[Angel Of Death]

As far as I'm aware, most sociopaths lack the self awareness to know that they're sociopaths. So you're probably fine!

Probably.

[martinuzz]

Just gonna drop off some problems here.

So just last weekend, my 14 year old self went to my friend Cameron's house. All was well and normal, I was just acting a little nervous or odd when next to his sister, Noelle whom I have a crush on.

Now, while that much is normal, what happened after playing "Sorry: Spongebob Edition" wasn't. I decided to ask where the shot glasses are, and that I'm going to take a shot of that Fireball Whiskey. Noelle decided to show me to a shot glass that was actually just a tiny bucket, and she poured me a drink. I knocked it back and said "Oh shit, that tastes exactly like the fucking cinnamon!" (We were also both doing the cinnamon challenge. I won, she hurled.) She started laughing, and brought me another drink. It was some coffee alcohol shaker thing that she didn't bother shaking. I decided "Why not?" and knocked it back. She then brought me a shot of rum, and I drank it. She brought me a shot of Tonic, and I dumped it in the sink, saying that it looked like diarrhea. She then brought me a shot of gin, and I drank it. Finally, she brought me a shot of vodka. I said "Oh shit, this is the real stuff now. I heard that you weren't supposed to drink vodka straight like that." She said "Oh just drink it!" And I did so. Well, atleast half of the shot. I dumped out the rest in the sink and said "Alright, I'm done, they were right! That shit tastes awful straight." Later that day, their dad suggested that we bike to 7/11 and buy slurpies. On the way there, I was extremely focused on not falling off the bike, as I was a bit inebriated, and didn't really go on bikes often at all. No problems there, but on the way back, I could barely taxi my bike across the street with the slurpy in my hand, so Noelle decided to take both her's and my slurpy to ride back. I saw it in her face and tone of voice that she was very disappointed.

When their dad drove me back to my house, that's when I realized how fucked up I am. Also, their parents didn't know that I drank anything, although Noelle almost told them twice. She's also been going through some emotional problems, where she would randomly start crying and yelling over small things, usually started by her step-mom. I think I should also mention that Cameron is annoying as hell, and is only her step-brother that barely considers them related.

I always get nervous around girls, and can never just be friends with them, as I end up getting attached and worried that they're not into me, and can't stop thinking about what's under their clothes. I have a fucked up mindset about most things, and keep daydreaming odd things, such as shit being destroyed, people being killed, or me being inside girls that I know. Today on the bus, a friend asked: "If your dad divorced your mom, and married another that had daughters, and they liked you, would it count as Incest?" I said: "Technically yes, but I'd be fine with it." "Yeah, but no blood or anything." "I'd be into it even if we were related by blood."

I have it all planned out and everything to be a burglar or car hopper as a plan B profession.

I know that I'd probably be classified as a Sociopath if I went to a counselor, and I don't want the world to legally see me as one, I want to only allow those who are in my immediate vicinity to see that. And you people, of course.

I also have a very bad work ethic. I procrastinate on almost everything. I passed 8th grade by a single point on the science final, and I'm smart too! I'm very smart, and that's how my parents are a bit disappointed in me, too. They probably expected me to be an honors student, not a kid that they'd have to go to the school because I got detention for not doing any homework. My procrastination is so bad, that I don't play with friends and talk to them on skype often, as I do not wish to be bothered or deal with people. It's so bad that I waited until the last day to finish a succession game, and I LOVE playing DF! It's so bad that I procrastinate in trying to find help or fixes for my procrastination.

I'm pretty sure I'd be classified as a Kleptomaniac, as I've been stealing things stealthily since Kindergarten, only being caught by people I trusted ratting me out, probably leading to my untrusting of people, and a bit of my paranoia.

Posting this here because I'm pretty much anonymous, and just wanted to express some mental hardships.

Doesn't sound to me like you're a sociopath. Sounds to me like you are 14.
Be careful with alcohol though. The problem with brains at your age is that they won't know they're too intoxicated until it's too late, which you mildly experienced when trying to bike back with that slurpy. Too many kids end up in a coma because they drank one shot too many.

Also:

Sociopathy is defined as the inability to experience social responsibility and a conscience. 

The inability to experience social responsability is also common, if not defining, with young people like you. The fact that you even posted this does hint at you having a conscience though, so I'd say no worries. Just continue growing up, and enjoy it while it lasts haha.