Oh Korbac, you are so right - the number of incompetent nincompoops I've had to work with in IT because business managers value confidence over competence... *sigh*. Its really awkward sometimes, especially when Nincompoop McNewITManager calls me to ask what a 3G modem is and how he'd go about procuring one for the CEO. Or Nincompoop McNewSocialMediaSpecialist asks me "so what *is* this tweeter thing the CEO wants?" And actually starts taking notes when I answer. On the bright side (for the nincompoops at least), I've never seen the business managers notice the amazing IT disasters unfolding under their very feet. If only magma pits and pressure plates activated by the size of your ego were something I was allowed to install...
Joshua... dude, sounds like you are in a really rough place. Modern society is pretty fucked up, and it certainly produces a whole lot of suffering and damaged people - but you sir, are making movements towards being a more healthy and whole individual. That's a pretty rare thing - not just letting yourself stagnate in your own emotional miasma, and so you have my respect. I'd tell you to be proud of yourself, but I've been there, and I know its pretty hard to feel good about anything when your that low.
I believe americans have *incredibly expensive* health care, so maybe focus on the fact you are paying a lot of money for a service, and are thus entitled to it? Dunno. At anyrate, good on you for perservering in the face of all these negative feelings.
I hope that the guy shrink you found is nice, and you two fit well.
Also, good luck with the interview! I misunderstood and thought that you had the job already. I hope it goes well. Remember - you play DF, so you *must* be more awesome than all their other candidates.
PS MaximumZero... *mad giggles* THE MENTAL IMAGE. LOL.