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[TempAcc]

Its funny how it was my girlfriend who was scared of me, and not the other way, at first :v

The very first few words I uttered to her were "holy shit, can I marry your hair?"

[TD1]

My problem isn't so much the speaking - though it does take me a bit to get comfortable at times. The main thing is that I've yet to find one I actually like enough to spend extended periods of time with. Girlfriends are a time draining investment, and I just really can't be alert and sociable all that time.

[Dozebôm Lolumzalìs]

He's probably just shy around girls, caz. It happens.

Shy in general, but females in particular.

I'm like that too!

Yeah, girls are so scary! It'd help if they weren't so much bigger and stronger. Their homes are so nice, but they're like traps! They got all that poison too, and they throw hair into your eyes! And if you ever convince one to sleep with you, they cannibalize you during the act, like what the hell? This isn't fair at all!

TIL Josh is a spider

[Frumple]

This is terrifying.  Hope everything is ok, Frumple.

Yeah, me  too. And thanks. Should be able to talk to the doc later this week... they're gone for a few days at the moment, but I don't think it's that urgent.

Though that said, right now easily what the worst thing about it is that it's a think. I can't quite tell how bad it's gotten or how rapidly, because the details and whatnot that would normally be there, aren't. Enough is there to know it's fucking up, but not too long ago I would have been able to tell exactly how much, or near enough.

Can say that even if this gets cleared up my intention to kill myself before/when I start going senile just got a lot stronger. And it was already pretty strong, as I've had enough of my body breaking down on me to not want to go through it when it's no longer on biological easy modo difficulty. Even if it's what I think/pretty sure is fairly minor this is basically complete fucking hell. It's like your arm's rotting off, but you can't tell how quickly or how long it's been happening and sometimes how much is gone changes on you, but when and by how much is something you can't identify.

Had known in a sort of vague way that memory and whatnot going was unpleasant, but it's not vague anymore and unpleasant is very much an understatement

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugs Frumple*

[Eric Blank]

I'm just not comfortable talking to anybody. It always feels like I'm being judged for the worst and i always sound like a dork. And at college going to/from class I notice a lot of girls on the same sidewalk as me will just step off or take a different route like they're trying to avoid me. I don't know why everybody avoids me, it doesnt seem like other people get treated this way and its really bothering me now. Like I always keep to myself I don't look around at people all the time. Just out of the corner of my eye people will stop and step off the path, like where there arent any entrances to a building. I don't take up the whole sidewalk like some people either!

[NRDL]

@Eric Blank: Regardless of how bad it seems from your perspective, a portion of it IS only happening in your head.  We all make things out to be worse than they really are.  Best thing for you is to do anything to get out of your head.  Other people's perceptions aren't something any of us can control. 

[Eric Blank]

I get that, yeah. I wish I could get out of my head. There are nicer places to be :\

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugs*

Maybe they're trying to avoid the radius of your Awe effect.  ;P

[Descan]

i did ~something~ i know not what and now the person i was really enjoying talking to and wanted to meet up cut me off from everything and won't respond to texts

[spümpkin]

@Girl ddweebs

I mean, being trans has made it so I kinda feel more... comfortable among girls, and I have more friends that are girls than I do guys. Mostly through LGBT group, but also because in my original group of friends there was a few, and one of them is now one of my best friends.

[Tiruin]

i did ~something~ i know not what and now the person i was really enjoying talking to and wanted to meet up cut me off from everything and won't respond to texts

Send inquiry and possible apology ahead of time in assuming fault? :O

Really worried that I'll fail my thesis because of TIME.

[TheBiggerFish]

@DigitalDemon:

er

that

um

doesn't help with aaaaaa social anxiousness very much

@Descan:I, yeah, Tiruin's probably got the idea.

Maybe they're taking a nap or asleep or something?  I mean it's not impossible depending on the timezones and all.

*hugs anyway*

[Tiruin]

@DigitalDemon:

er

that

um

doesn't help with aaaaaa social anxiousness very much

Ask yourself or look at what probably could have made you anxious--previous understandings, impressions, or otherwise (ie 'This is what my {older person}' said). Anything that could affect your social anxiousness more if you face a girl, than if the person is...um, not a girl?
I mean I can understand this in a way too (despite being a girl myself, but to other girls XD) but its also a more personal thing at times.

[TheBiggerFish]

They're a girl.  Insofar as I can tell, it's just a visceral reaction.