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Work with hard regulations. Can't really broadcast my job, because a.) C suite supervisor says, b.) confidential, c.) legal reasons, and d.) complicated subject matter. Situation actually kinda sucks. I'm actually trying to help out the organization.... I've been called "a spy," and "here to fire everyone," but that couldn't be further from the truth. Expressly, said I didn't care about blame, just fixing it. Received bad responses.... They know or should know what confidential means. "Attorney," they realize legal junk is difficult.... Further, they don't ask the other lawyer this crap.
Today, I was approached by a man who asked, "Hey, what do you do here?"
Still limping from injuries but not complaining, we all wear a name and position badge; I respond with this information.
He continues, "Yeah I see you around, and I just thought I'd ask you what the hell you do here."
I clarify some broad strokes of the regulatory areas I deal with. He states he's from a related but different organization. I reply, "Good to have you here."
Tactical sense and planning took over and fell back to overly professional, politeness but still ... a part of me couldn't believe it. What the...? Who cares what somebody else's job is. It's not hurting anyone. That's really the point. I haven't hurt anyone. For being so "terrible," I haven't done anything terrible, to anyone. I moved next door to the place (not something destroyers do), work extra crazy unpaid hours, and do all I can. The people at the top of the organization, know what I do, because I report to them. They're scared to death what happens if I fail, but I'm resisted. They think I'm doing great. The people on the ground, however, are convinced I'm going to screw them all over for some strange reason. All the same, still temporarily injured; battling broken. Embrace the suck.... Several opportunities for difficulty....
I'm often quiet. I talk fast, say much in no time, and slow myself for others.
It's not that I don't get it, or don't listen. I hear, comprehend, analyze, and formulate, rapidly. Cut my teeth in Hell with judges and/or morons wanting answers yesterday; unaccustomed to slower pace.
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