also, i just look like shit usually
That one, at least, is easy to fix. Wake up 10 minutes earlier and go to bed 10 minutes later, and use those 10 minutes before and after sleeping to do some little steps towards making yourself look better (shower, shave, push ups, whatever you feel will push you towards looking better). Force yourself to hold that habit without ever breaking it for at least 2 weeks (a month is preferable) to establish it as a habit. Then stop worrying about it (or at least don't go out of your way to do so), and over time if you hold that habit you will eventually start to look better. Change is slow, but as long as you're moving towards the goal then you're winning.
i already shower every evening (because my hair often manages to look worse when i've just showered), and i don't actually need to shave more than once every one or two weeks. push-ups... eh. i did that, once. don't know why i stopped, probably because it's too cold on my room just before i go to sleep in the winter. when i tried to start again the tendons in my shoulders hurt a lot, which didnt seem to be a very good thing :/
the shit im most insecure about is probably my hair which looks really bad most of the time, but i have no idea what to do about it.
and man, i really feel like i'm not moving towards my goal right now. i've made no concrete progress in two months.
i try to get "out there" more, it's why i decided to start playing mtg. except everybody at my lgs is a dude so it basically didn't help me at all. yay. what the fuck am i even supposed to do when all of my interests are massive sausage fests.
On the other hand really the only answer to something like this is "find a hobby that isn't a massive sausage fest", sadly. Find something that sounds somewhat interesting and that is a bit more gender neutral and start looking into it. If you look hard enough there is usually at least something that you can find somewhat interesting and has both genders. That said it is worth mentioning that even talking with members of the same sex is still good social practice; maybe not quite as good at obtaining your eventual goal, but still helpful at least in some ways.
i really can't think of anything, at all. aand even if i could, it probably wouldnt exist in this shitty city. "wait until you go to uni" is not an option, because i would prefer not to be an awkward recluse for the next two years.