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[Solifuge]

...Nonspecific general downcast feelings suck.

I should sleep, I suppose.  That's probably enough.  I'll try to get some responses out in the morning.  I've kind of been neglecting this thread today .

Sorry.

Hon, piece of unsolicited advice.

Maybe stop putting so much of your focus and energy into everyone else's problems and difficulties? That kind of non-specific depressed and listless feeling can creep in when you've emotionally drained yourself on behalf of other people. Put some care and energy into yourself, make your own life better, and take care of yourself; when you do that, you have a deeper well to draw from when you want to help folks around you. It only makes sense to show yourself the same compassion you want to show anyone else.

Codependance is a bad habit. Even with the best intentions, you've got to take good care of yourself, or you won't be able to help anyone else.

[Grapefruit Sorcerer]

RIP mainiac.   ;__;7

Wait, he got banned? 

RIP brave soil

[misko27]

On a related note, you post here a lot TBF. I mean honestly. You've been here for half the time I've been here and have at least twice my posts. I may be an old coot yelling at weather balloons in the politics thread now, but given I was active of FG&RP for a while (and FG&RP is to post inflation what Zimbabwe is to currency inflation), it's not a trivial amount either.

RIP mainiac.   ;__;7

Wait, he got banned? 

RIP brave soil

mainiac died doing what he loved: salting the earth.

Let this be a lesson to you all. Ceterum Censeo Carthaginem Esse Delendam.

[Emma]

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Broke my phone and almost cried about it. It wasn't the breaking of the phone that hurts but the fact that it feels like everything bad happening to me is because I was born wrong. I wish I could talk to my mum, she'd know why I'm like this. She'd know why I'm fucked and broken. I want to tell her because she could help me. I want to talk to her or anyone because I need someone to know that I'm broken. I don't think I'll sleep well tonight. Why couldn't I be like my sister or any other girl? Why do I have to be me? Why do I have to be so stupid and worthless and ugly and broken?

[Ultimuh]

On a related note, you post here a lot TBF. I mean honestly. You've been here for half the time I've been here and have at least twice my posts. I may be an old coot yelling at weather balloons in the politics thread now, but given I was active of FG&RP for a while (and FG&RP is to post inflation what Zimbabwe is to currency inflation), it's not a trivial amount either.

RIP mainiac.   ;__;7

Wait, he got banned? 

RIP brave soil

mainiac died doing what he loved: salting the earth.

Let this be a lesson to you all. Ceterum Censeo Carthaginem Esse Delendam.

mainiac.. who..?
I suppose I should be more aware of whom is whom, and what is going on around here, more often.

[Arx]

Mostly active in the politics threads, but a bit in Other Games too. Clinton supporter, prone to salt.

At the risk of sounding unhelpful... then talk to her.

[TheBiggerFish]

@Gamedragon: *hugs*

Talk to her.  Call her, do something.

With that said, you are neither stupid, worthless, ugly, nor broken.

...Nonspecific general downcast feelings suck.

I should sleep, I suppose.  That's probably enough.  I'll try to get some responses out in the morning.  I've kind of been neglecting this thread today .

Sorry.

Hon, piece of unsolicited advice.

Maybe stop putting so much of your focus and energy into everyone else's problems and difficulties? That kind of non-specific depressed and listless feeling can creep in when you've emotionally drained yourself on behalf of other people. Put some care and energy into yourself, make your own life better, and take care of yourself; when you do that, you have a deeper well to draw from when you want to help folks around you. It only makes sense to show yourself the same compassion you want to show anyone else.

Codependance is a bad habit. Even with the best intentions, you've got to take good care of yourself, or you won't be able to help anyone else.

ahahaha

But what do I do?

By all rights I should be happy, but I'm not...I'm mostly doing what I want to do, I'm not crazy-stressed, I generally get a good amount of sleep...I eat reasonably well...What's wrong with me to fix here?

[Harry Baldman]

ahahaha

But what do I do?

By all rights I should be happy, but I'm not...I'm mostly doing what I want to do, I'm not crazy-stressed, I generally get a good amount of sleep...I eat reasonably well...What's wrong with me to fix here?

Spending less time on Bay12 in general might be a good idea. Consider dropping off for a week or two. A month. A year, perhaps. Or even for all time. Break the habit if it doesn't make you happy, and fill the time you regain with something new.

[TheBiggerFish]

ahahaha

But what do I do?

By all rights I should be happy, but I'm not...I'm mostly doing what I want to do, I'm not crazy-stressed, I generally get a good amount of sleep...I eat reasonably well...What's wrong with me to fix here?

Spending less time on Bay12 in general might be a good idea. Consider dropping off for a week or two. A month. A year, perhaps. Or even for all time. Break the habit if it doesn't make you happy, and fill the time you regain with something new.

I don't think I could, even if I wanted to.

I have too little else.

Well, there's my problem...*sigh*

[TD1]

Feckin' grant feckin' Erasmus feckin' not giving me it.

[Harry Baldman]

I don't think I could, even if I wanted to.

I have too little else.

Well, there's my problem...*sigh*

You're not gonna ever fill that void with anything if you don't free up the space, man.

[TheBiggerFish]

But the question is what do I fill that space with?

[x2yzh9]

And now I'm sitting here, feeling like shit because I constantly hear people screaming at me to do something, but it's all part of my 'psychosis' and I feel like I'll never find out why because I have to figure every damn thing for myself. It's like playing sherlock holmes with yourself to find out why other people are going through things and its not fun, it makes me feel guilty as fuck, and my dreams last night, and every night I've been having them, dont feel like fucking dreams. It literally[I feel] is turning other peoples lifes into shit and I don't know how to deal with it when these people don't text, call, or try to ask me anything. So here I am playing it solo and it's not fun, I wish I had a relationship, point-blank any type, because I've never had one, and I am doing my damnedest to not 'settle for less', but in my current situation I feel an invoking responsibility to mend broken hearts, and that's not great either. I want to know how this started and why it is the way it is, the only way I can manage to do that is through meditation, visions, dreams, and while I'm capable of lucid dreaming while awake through meditation it is not fun, it is fairly horrifying and frightening, because I feel like I'm the only one with this knowledge. I have to take it to my therapist and my psychiatrists but I'm not feeling like it's helping;not because they're bad doctors, they're some of the best but it's like I have to figure this out for myself before anyone else can help me. And I guess that's true in my situation. Although, I wish these people would just up and forget the preconceived notions that I'm going to like, hurt them or just kick them out because I'm not that type of person, but I mean, it is likely I will get into a confrontation about it because I am not someone that's just going to be a doormat. So, there, that's what made me sad and angry today. Maybe I'm just going through a psychosis and it's all in my head. I really, really wish and hope that's true. But I feel so deeply that I know it's not.

[Dozebôm Lolumzalìs]

I assure you, I am very real. That, at least, I can provide. (I suck at consolation, so that'll have to do.)

[ChairmanPoo]

But the question is what do I fill that space with?

Join a political party, a trade union, or a religious group, depending on your leanings

I'm kinda serious, too...