I've never had a social life at all. Not even one friend I could hang out with. I've never hung out with anyone or gone out anywhere, least of all to a party. I don't have any stories to tell, interesting or funny or anything. I've never done anything interesting. What can I even do to meet other people with my grand total of zero hobbies and zero interests. Yeah I know I'm fucking depressed, but even when I'm not or even when I'm fucking manic I don't have any interests. I do the exact same fucking thing all day regardless of my mood. Sit on my ass and stare at random shit I find on the internet. I've never had any interests. And really the most interesting thing I've "done" is be homeless for months because my grandparents kicked me out for being gay. If I had any fucking friends I probably could've at least found a couch to crash on, but nope. Last December I tried to fucking kill myself. Maybe if I had anybody to talk to, I wouldn't have done that.
Who the hell would want to talk to somebody like me? Who would want to be friends with me? And I don't just mean "oh we talk online sometimes we're friends!" I mean actually doing stuff together. I want to get off my ass and do something, anything. But I have no interests, no hobbies, no friends to do anything with and just aidsaoijgtajo
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