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[birdy51]

Performed a recital, did fantastic.

However, the turn out of people was small.

Granted, I picked a terrible time to have it, so I never should have expected that many people anyways. But I can't help but feel down about it, since so many people weren't able to make it.

Blergh...

[Rolan7]

I got a ring not three days ago. It fit perfectly, even a bit tightly.
And yet somehow it's now nearly too big to fit on my finger.
Rocks don't just expand like that, and knuckles don't shrink in three days...

Damn, that sucks.  I know that feeling, at least for clothes, it fits fine in the store when I'm in a hurry to leave but later...

Also I tried to go to a games night thing on Friday and I rolled sevens on every dice roll (alternating 3/4 with d6s) and got seven twice in one game of scrabble.
And of course the event was full of very loud extroverted people who were extremely homosexual. Emphasis on the sexual.

I am confused
Scrabble involves dice rolls?  I don't remember dice rolls.
And of course 7 is the most common roll on 2d6.  But I guess you're rolling 3-4 d6 for...
some game

I'm sorry you rolled low ):  But hey, for the future:  Losing at a game can lead to winning.  Just got to keep composure and remain graceful in "defeat".  It's just a game.

[TheBiggerFish]

Scrabble point values, probably.  (Word score.)

It sounds like rolling 2d6 occurred?

I can't tell.

[Trapezohedron]

When a mother you hate out of the blue contacts an aunt, and inquires some shit she's not supposed to know, obviously, the only choices for suspects are those from the inside.

I am one such of them suspects. And I did nothing. I get accused, shouted at, disowned, abused verbally, and insulted, and my mind is at an all time low. And I did nothing. I also didn't reveal the 10k monetary gift i received from her, although i only accepted it out of obligation and made a lot of effort avoiding to contact the goddamned mother, and as i said, obligation because she's supposed to fund me as a mother should anyway.

But that has been twisted into a narrative in which I have betrayed everyone by being sold for 10k, and now I'm the primary suspect in an all-too familiar and bullshit event that shouldn't have escalated the way it is right now.

As it is, my aunt no longer receives financial aid because of her involvement.

[TheBiggerFish]

*pats*



I hope you're okay.

[Tiruin]

._.
That sounds a ton like a legal case, Trapezoid. A familial legal case that requires intervention because of its effects both collateral and otherwise.

I graduated, true.

Cheers to you! Still in my 3rd year of my 4 year course \o/
Now you're free to do many things (as well as do volunteer work in your uni or otherwise!)

[...]scrabble.[...]

Those 2 letter words are your friends .-. Unless...you're not using the scrabble dictionary? :O


Extremely tired and feeling like the worst lead researcher ever in my thesis work. x_x We most likely will be delayed due to contacting and organizing schedules, along with my messages not going through to the rest which leads to unproductivity which reinforces my feelings of being the worst lead researcher ever! (Organizational skills = x_x)

And I didn't send that email since I thought I did (it did, but internet died so I have to retype it as it got lost in the outbox)

@TBF: It's shortened for his name

[TheBiggerFish]

Er, Tiruin, they're Trapezohedron.

I suppose you must really be tired...

Also *applies encouraging hugpats*.

You can do the thing.

[Trapezohedron]

A legal case indeed, in which I just happen to have the perfect mindset, alibi and motive for doing something like that.

Except I didn't. But fate conspired against me to dig me into a hole deeper and it's suddenly more convenient to turn me into the narrative's villain instead of being an outside force, unknown currently to anyone (except we all have a hunch and it's kind of an elephant in the room), that did it and provided information she has no business of knowing.

At this rate I'm also blamed for losing 797 worth of fees during my work. I probably lost only 396 in actuality but who would believe me I'm a very convenient villain and brainless asshole.

[TheBiggerFish]

@Trapezohedron:You are not a brainless asshole.

I don't have any advice to give, but I wish you the best of luck...

[Helgoland]

To be honest him being a non-brainless asshole would be disturbing as fuck, if only because it would mean that someone took a brain and shoved it up someone's butt.

[Dozebôm Lolumzalěs]

Disclaimer: sad, confused person typing with no punctuation and no uppercase. I'm not even sure if I want to say this, because I'm very private, but *nervous laugh* here goes?

Spoiler: i feel kind of uncomfortable saying things but if i never say things then i will never say things and that is bad maybe? (click to show/hide)

gender... roles? commonly assigned attributes? make me sad because i don't really fit into them

i'm a boy, but i'm very weak, and i don't even relate to boys my age - or girls either, but at least i'm not repulsed by them - since they

i don't play sports, like sports, none of those male stereotypes at all

although a few masculine stereotypical traits fit me, those are frequently modern-day fitting many women too

but quite a few feminine stereotypes fit me

and i don't like feeling uncomfortable

and i don't even know what i feel

and i wouldn't actually mind being a girl and i'm guessing most boys my age would mind a lot

and sometimes i even forget i'm a boy

i'm either not-a-gender or girl

which i guess means i don't really care much about gender but i still feel weird

and now i want to delete this rambling post but i don't really think that's okay

i might not fit either gender stereotype but i'm a good deal further feminine than other boys

and i haven't even felt anything toward a girl, just one specific girl, and i'm just nervous and think she's cute

but that's like 3rd grade stuff and i'm not sure how much of it i made up to feel "see? i like girls, i'm not being left behind by all my peers"

and my own personal thoughts on transgender people is that some of them really are girls in boys' bodies, and some of them (maybe) are more feminine-acting/thinking/feeling and because of rigid binary genders feel more like girls and so take on that identity? i can't really say and it doesn't really matter at all except how would i even know? how much gender dysphoria is enough to classify one as transgender? how do you even know if you have gender dysphoria?

and would i maybe even be agender? if that is what i think it is then it is where you don't really feel male or female or any other kind of gender

i don't care about my gender maybe is that the same how do you even classify that??

and i don't even know - it's not about genitals and i don't even know i'm just sad and confused is this agender or transgender or just a feminine boy and how do you even tell i just feel so weird about this

[Calidovi]

Reaffirm your identity. Stereotypes don't fit you because you're not a stereotype. If you want to say you're more feminine than most boys, then that's that. If you feel as though you'd be more cognizant of yourself as a girl, that's another thing.

Gender is formless. You got a dick? gg u handsome hunk. You don't have a dick? gg u babe . Whether you choose to follow everything else that follows gender and accept a title based on that is a personal call.

DISCLAIMER: imo tbh fam this.

[Helgoland]

Gender is formless. You got a dick? gg u handsome hunk. You don't have a dick? gg u babe .

Biologistic scum!

Anyway, yeah, fuck categories when they're not useful for, um, categorizing. As long as you're a decent human being and pull your weight, who gives a shit? Take your time to figure things out, don't put pressure on yourself - and fuck the folks who give you crap for this stuff.

[TheBiggerFish]

Sports?

As a self-identifying guy who started out that way, I personally couldn't give two hoots about sports except for some vestigial regional pride if our teams win championships.

If that's all you're basing things on, just 'am I RAAH STEREOTYPICAL MANLY MAAAN', that's not how it works.

You don't have to fit the stereotypes to consider yourself a guy, girl, or other.

You just have to feel that way yourself, and that's what matters.

I don't doubt that somewhere out there are people that are firmly in their biological sex's stereotypes that are nevertheless a different psychological gender.

Also stereotypes are full of BS.

My two cents.

(And if it helps any, I've often wondered what being a girl is like, if only to, y'know, visit, not live there.)

[Orange Wizard]

"I don't fit male stereotypes so I don't think I'm male" is a dangerous way of thinking.

...

and i wouldn't actually mind being a girl and i'm guessing most boys my age would mind a lot

To quote something I read a while back, "being a girl is every man's dream".

Actually I think that was from some hentai. Anyway, point stands. People don't usually think about being the opposite sex as though it'd be horrible and terrible, and just because you think it'd be okay doesn't mean you need to call your identity in to question.