Went to have lunch with grandmother and aunt and uncle. Grandmother never addressed me, including when I asked her questions, other than to ask me to go get her a shawl; when I brought it, she didn't acknowledge my presence. She didn't congratulate me (or say anything at all) when I'd just come out from doing well on that computer science question on Friday, either. None of the 60+-year olds tried to engage me in conversation at all, and spent the entire thing talking about things that I had absolutely no experience with and couldn't discuss (home and garden, flights to various places, people's jobs). My father made sure my mother could succeed in the conversation and held her hand. I tried to interject and join in on the conversation, but no one ever ran with it.
When we left and I complained, my mother told me to stop being so self-centered, because my grandmother had raised her, and that I could have easily gotten in on the conversation if I'd just bothered (seen anywhere I could get in), and that it was rude of me to even bring it up at all because she'd apparently suffered more. No one bothered to talk to me until I told them I had to leave and do some homework. Now my father is consoling my mother, and I'm alone and about to start doing homework. This was after, as my father and I walked over, he tried his damndest to show me up in computer science and technical work.
So hey, guys, I had a great time and I definitely exist and have value.
(I hate being alive)