Yeah, it doesn't make any sense does it? Wanting attention, and fearing attention.
I think we're in a similar boat, and that's a bit comforting. Thanks.
Heh, you're welcome. It's a hella weird thing, and in my case it probably stems from a conflict between who i want to be and who i currently am. I want to be known and respected as much as the next guy (hell, i sometimes think about what it'd be like to be the host of some TV show), but at the same time, i'm extremely uncomfortable about letting people look at what i do and like, which most certainly stems from bad experiences in school. I think, perhaps, that we (or at least I) want attention, but fear that it'll turn negative and spiral out of control in the event of the slightest goddamn misstep.
Oh you weren't kidding about the bowels! Okay.
Protip: Everyone poops. Some people poop a lot (I know a couple), and in my experience I stopped caring pretty quick. It's a little funny at first, then... chaff. Something I don't care to think about.
Everyone has problems. Likeability (which you have) trumps all but the worst.
And if someone does pick on you for having a problem... Not only are they an asshole, but you can turn that desperate predation around on them. By being the victim (if anyone even dares victimize such a thing) you are far more sympathetic.
I was semi-kidding about the poop (my actual poopings are surprisingly normal for the most part), but i can only wish that i was kidding about my bowels. There are worse conditions, for sure, but i can't claim to enjoy being afflicted by bowel discomfort and mild nausea on a near-daily basis. Ain't got nothing to do but take it in stride though (... and try to avoid the things that aggravate the condition), because as far as i know, it's not going away any time soon. Who knows though, i lost my asthma (which most definitely was not a misdiagnosis, i had a conveniently timed asthma attack on the exact same day that i was going to the hospital for some asthma-related thing, and that was some legit "peak expiratory flow reduced to 35% of normal" shit), so maybe i'll lose this along the road as well. :v
Also, i'm not ashamed of having irritable bowels (or haemorrhoids for that matter), i just realize that people generally don't want to know and that there's no real reason for me to give specific details, even if i may be tempted. As you say, if people decide to give me hate for having these conditions, well, they forget that i deal with a bothersome asshole on a daily basis.
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