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[Sirus]

Ain't dere orky boyz dat worship da Kaos godz?

[Dsarker]

Also, more correctly, I was young, I needed the money, and you can't change yer name.

[Flying Dice]

Also, more correctly, I was young, I needed the money, and you can't change yer name.

I feel like there's an Emmy here.

[Dutchling]

So, we just got a new government here, and it is clear the Islamophobe party is no longer part of it. First action of the minister of foreign affairs: criticize Israel for doing Israel stuff.
Yesssssss.

[RedKing]

Warning: blogish post ahead.

Spoiler (click to show/hide)

So I think I untangled one of my longstanding mental knots today. As a kid, I was quite emotional; didn't stop publicly crying until about the 4th grade. I threw tantrums and whatnot seemingly more than average. I always thought I was just spoiled and whiny. Now... I'm not so sure.

I noticed recently that I tend to sympathize and identify closer with the female characters in media. The stereotypes they portray tend to be closer to who I am than the stereotypes male characters portray. I was watching The Incredibles today, which I've always had a love/hate relationship with, and I saw an extremely large amount of "me" in Violet. She's shy, unsure of herself, pretty alone, and teased by her brother (all things was as a kid, and some still am today). After screwing up during the plane scene she even tried to tearfully apologize to her mother for her failure. I'm someone with extreme issues concerning disappointing other people, so yeah, that's very much something I'd do.

The difference between the Violet character and me though, is she got sympathy from her family when she was feeling down. I did not. When I cried, I was told to suck it up and be a man. I quietly took abuse and harassment until I exploded, which means others only ever saw two states of me: normal and tantrum. This gave them the impression that I was whiny when I didn't get my way, when in reality it was always a "straw that broke the camel's back" thing. What signs of distress I did show before that were ignored as I'm male, and men are supposed to not care or be sensitive.

I am sensitive. I am emotional. And I like me that way. I gravitated toward making friends online when I was younger because they actually showed compassion to me. I make a frowny face emoticon and people ask me what's wrong. I frown in real life and people ignore me or tell me to stop whining.

But this is the happy thread, so I'll explain why I'm happy: I now hate myself slightly less. I'm no longer embarrassed or ashamed about my behavior when I was younger. I'm sensitive, I'm emotional, I care what others think about me, I'm occasionally a hopeless romantic, I desperately want people to show affection to me, and dammit, I like me that way. So yeah. Screw male stereotypes. They do not apply to me nor should they.

*brofist*
Most people in RL think I'm incredibly stoic, even to the point of being robotic or inhuman at times. Truth is, I'm almost certainly more feminine and "nurturing" and affectionate than my wife (which wouldn't be hard). I just keep all that under wraps.

[Mego]

Warning: blogish post ahead.

Spoiler (click to show/hide)

So I think I untangled one of my longstanding mental knots today. As a kid, I was quite emotional; didn't stop publicly crying until about the 4th grade. I threw tantrums and whatnot seemingly more than average. I always thought I was just spoiled and whiny. Now... I'm not so sure.

I noticed recently that I tend to sympathize and identify closer with the female characters in media. The stereotypes they portray tend to be closer to who I am than the stereotypes male characters portray. I was watching The Incredibles today, which I've always had a love/hate relationship with, and I saw an extremely large amount of "me" in Violet. She's shy, unsure of herself, pretty alone, and teased by her brother (all things was as a kid, and some still am today). After screwing up during the plane scene she even tried to tearfully apologize to her mother for her failure. I'm someone with extreme issues concerning disappointing other people, so yeah, that's very much something I'd do.

The difference between the Violet character and me though, is she got sympathy from her family when she was feeling down. I did not. When I cried, I was told to suck it up and be a man. I quietly took abuse and harassment until I exploded, which means others only ever saw two states of me: normal and tantrum. This gave them the impression that I was whiny when I didn't get my way, when in reality it was always a "straw that broke the camel's back" thing. What signs of distress I did show before that were ignored as I'm male, and men are supposed to not care or be sensitive.

I am sensitive. I am emotional. And I like me that way. I gravitated toward making friends online when I was younger because they actually showed compassion to me. I make a frowny face emoticon and people ask me what's wrong. I frown in real life and people ignore me or tell me to stop whining.

But this is the happy thread, so I'll explain why I'm happy: I now hate myself slightly less. I'm no longer embarrassed or ashamed about my behavior when I was younger. I'm sensitive, I'm emotional, I care what others think about me, I'm occasionally a hopeless romantic, I desperately want people to show affection to me, and dammit, I like me that way. So yeah. Screw male stereotypes. They do not apply to me nor should they.

Good for you. All human beings have emotions. It's stupid and pointless to hide them. You're only lying to yourself if you do.

[Aklyon]

So, we just got a new government here, and it is clear the Islamophobe party is no longer part of it. First action of the minister of foreign affairs: criticize Israel for doing Israel stuff.
Yesssssss.

Are you sure it isn't?

[Scelly9]

And this is why Tesla coils are one of the coolest things ever.

[Dutchling]

So, we just got a new government here, and it is clear the Islamophobe party is no longer part of it. First action of the minister of foreign affairs: criticize Israel for doing Israel stuff.
Yesssssss.

Are you sure it isn't?

Erm, yes, why?

[Aklyon]

Because that kinda sounded like the stuff is happening anyway.

[Dutchling]

I'm not sure what you're talking about.

[Dsarker]

Is/lamo/phobe, not Is/rael/phobe.

[kaijyuu]

I'm presuming Akylon misread your post, Dutch.I kinda got mixed up after reading your post too. Dunno why.

But yeah, an islamaphobe would be supportive of Israel. Since they're criticizing Israel, they're showing their lack of islamaphobia.

[Dsarker]

I'z got mixed up, too. Dat'z whoi I 'elped 'im.

[Aklyon]

Too many I's for me today >.<