Welcome back Meph; it's good to know that you are doing alright and the fact that you pulled through that low point.
I'm surprised, all things considered. I think most people would have turned away and forged a new path, burying the past. Means a lot to know that you were willing to come back and pick up were you left off - takes a lot of dedication and heart to do that.
Hope things continue to go well for you as they are now - if not better.
Thank you.
Hm. Surprised you decided to come back, or atleast leave an explanation as to what happened.
Not only you, I'd guess.
I still support you, Meph. I know what a bitch depression is and how it sucks the will to do anything out of you. At the end of the day, your life and matters associated with it comes before any game.
Thanks.
Hi Meph. I've never really used Masterwork, but a friend linked this thread to me. Have you been seeing a therapist? If not, I'd strongly recommend it. They can help you work through issues, help you with depression, help you unlearn bad coping mechanisms (like where you hid from everyone because you felt like you couldn't face them) and learn good ones to replace them, and more.
If you already are seeing a therapist, congrats on being willing to seek help. If not, you shouldn't feel like you have to do it on your own. It's also far better to see a professional therapist than to expect untrained friends or relatives or SOs to essentially provide therapy on their own free time.
I have not. As I've said, once I realized what was going on, I managed to slowly get better. Small things, which spiraled upwards. Last 2-3 months I've started planning the next big thing, and the mix of a friendly message, Toadys DF update and the 1-year anniversary of my absence brought me back here too.
Hey man, welcome back. For myself I do not want any money back from the patreon. Just glad you are okay and happy to see you have returned.
Noted, thank you.
Even though I never really cared much for Masterwork, I warmly welcome your return to the community regardless. I know exactly how much depression can drag you down in your day-to-day life, and I'm glad to see that you're managing.
And on a side note, what luck that you're back just in time for the newest release cycle!
Luck. I'm not sure many modders would agree on that.
whooo, welcome back... good to hear you are doing a bit better again after "last year was so bad" as you said...
will be interesting to hear what you will work on for masterwork once you read through all the updates.
dont forget to post a new patreon update too for them peoples... seems the last was 9th dec.2016 (exactly one year ago )
I'm not sure what to do with MDF right now... I can't really port it to the newest DF now, without Twbt and Dfhack. Maybe I start another small mod, to get used to it again.
For what it's worth, I'm glad you're back and feeling better.
I'll admit that I was quite upset about the whole "disappearing act" thing... but honestly, I can see a lot of myself in the way you describe being ashamed to look at Bay12 and hiding away from everyone and everything. Getting out of that rut is a bitch, so good on you for facing it and writing this post, even if it took a while.
I still check this forum every couple of days, so I hope to see an official update sometime in the future
Thank you. And this... is the official update?
I mean, how much more official could it get?
Water under the bridge, theres nothing we can do to change the fact it happened. Maning up and telling the truth is a step in the right direction. Im sure all of us are looking forward to the next release of masterwork
Its good to have you back
And thank you too.
Glad you're back, and healthy. It sounds like things just sort of spiraled away from you, and it became harder and harder to reenter this place. I hope that the other thread about your patreon doesn't give you the impression that you have irrevocably lost the trust of this community. All the time that you put in is greatly appreciated, even if it's punctuated by absences.
Thanks. And no, not at all. In comparison to what I expected, people are surprisingly nice and friendly to me. A bit suspicious.
I really don't know how to respond to this, but...Good to have you back, man.
Yeah, it's a bit rare that I post personal things here. I wasn't quite sure if it's oversharing, but at least it is an explanation.