I've been speculating for a long time that I'm not introverted. There's something of a theory that I heard about how there are 'introverted' people that get their energy from being alone, and extroverted people that get their energy from being around others. It's a very oversimplified view of psychology, IMO, but I also think that humans give themselves too much credit as far as sentience goes, so maybe it's closer than I want to admit.
The idea being, that maybe my natural, neurological state was predestined at birth to be inclined towards extroversion... but due to the circumstance of always being alone and isolated growing up, and even being very alone in adulthood, I just assumed I'm an introvert, when in reality that's killing me psychologically. Though that is something that makes me very afraid, as I don't have the internalized model of behavior of an extroverted person. It's a style of behavior that seems really alien to me. I just guess it's something to think about, that I was never meant to be such a person so trapped in their own thoughts all the time, but a person who is very social and lives in reaction to life as opposed to trying to anticipate it. I'm not sure where I'd start, I'm hopelessly naive and certain to make a fool of myself as I try to play the part making it up rather than it being the natural product of my real feelings, but I guess I need to start somewhere.