Again, even if I had some reason to believe... I don't think I could accept that.
A deity who demands perfection but creates imperfection but then offers unconditional forgiveness, but only if said imperfect creations believe in a certain thing with no evidence?
That just seems so bizarre to me.
The fickle whims of the fey at least admit their non-rationality. Playing a fey game might offer some boon. Probably a tricky one, but that's a boon in itself right? A spice to life.
Maybe I'd feel differently if I had dependents. I'd bet with the ""sure"" religion which offered safety. But since I don't, so I'd rather have an interesting life.
And more importantly than what I'd want, fey-trickery makes infinitely more sense than some absent father-analogue creator offering forgiveness for the despicable way it made me.
Read into that all you want, but under a fair reading of judeo-christian texts I'm not actually responsible for what I am. I had no choice, and I'm suffering the quote-unquote "sin" of some ancient greatX-grandfather.
And my only chance is to circumstancially adopt a redemption belief system from the most recent 0.5% of human history?
I don't believe I *deserve* absolute salvation. I sinned against my morals, and I regret that. And if I still get infinite perfection as a reward despite my unresolved shame, if I say sorry, I guess God is someone who values apology over reasonable morality.
If there's any justice, I belong in some analogue of purgatory (at least for some finite time). But that's not how common US Christianity works. The apologetic are saved, the confused burn eternally.
If I do join any Abrahamic denomination, it will certainly be Catholicism. It resonates with me. I need some punishment for what I've done, or I cannot feel clean. Like karma.
But looking at reality, I'm more likely to keep believing in fickle, blue-green-morality aliens who play with us.
Edit: Or the Cathars, actually. In fact Catharism over Catholicism.