SO ANYWAY, are we going to start the next chapter anytime soon?
Um, yeah. I'm like... 7 in-game days in as of last time I tried to play and uh... I'm on right now playing DnD through Google Docs with some friends and trying to get some homework done at the same time, but I figured while I was procrastinating anyway by DnD playing I'd check the forums. So far the only interesting events are that Ulborb named a shield something and that two dwarves are (still) stranded outside of MurderMachines.
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Well, delusions or not, they're very friendly and haven't shown any ill bearing towards me, nor have they tried to influence me off the path of common sense ((discounting when one of my headmates reawoke after a long post-manifestation hibernation and immediately tried to take control and eat literally everything and everyone. Mercifully she was still half asleep and could be beaten back until she woke fully and came to reason)) so no harm no foul, right?~
And, on that "soul == source code" thing... If I were to describe my own soul in such a context, it would be two incredibly different foreign code modules bound together by a foreign netcode module, and MAYBE there's a local parent module in there somewhere that I haven't been able to identify. Are you by any chance familiar with the concept of otherkin? ((Perhaps my analogy of the transposed consciousness was a little awry... I'll need to do some more analysis. I still don't know how physical/metaphysical my destination actually is.))
I don't think what I experienced was a vision; it was certainly as if I had just been transported somewhere and was indeed conversing with an entity. It's rather fun discussing death with a deity that maintains a death-related sphere.
And yes, angels were the messenger spirits.
GET THINE ASS OFF OF TUMBLR, I COMMAND THEE!!!! I mean, yes. Otherkin and headmates almost always exist on a psychological level. And there is definitely harm done if a headmate tried to eat people, even if you were able to stop it. In my opinion, which is different from modern and postmodern psychology I know, headmates occur when an individual lacks a strong primary persona and as a result every set of urges, especially conflicting ones, is compartmentalized into it's own identity, but they're mostly fractures of the same person, instead of possession or legitimate DID. ( If you choose to believe you're among the exception, that is fine but either way I have to emphasize the need for caution and recommend that you work on building your main persona and building the character thereof. )
Nah, all souls are written in the same source code and humans probably only have one. Some Hindu ( and possibly some Buddhist ) study speculates that humans have three souls. To me, there's insufficient evidence that this is the case and possibly also comes from another misunderstanding of what a soul is, because I do not know what they define as a soul.
Also, I have no idea where you went. Though, a question, did you ask on what authority said being was talking to you on?
I REFUSE TO LEAVE TUMBLR, THE PEOPLE THERE HAVE TAUGHT ME THAT I'M NOT A BROKEN MISTAKE. Plus I met my girlfriend on Tumblr, sooo '^^
I don't think it's possession nor DID, but one past life and one alternate life soulbound to me across time ((and death, in one case)). I say this option because I have access to the memories of both of these lives, even if I don't understand the languages both lives spoke in ((which is a damn pain...)). Also, one of them is incredibly interested in your side to this conversation; he finds it a theory worth pursuing. The other's a bit... wary. She's telling me to tread carefully.
I'd try to draw a representation of my soul, but the last time I tried drawing something I got hit with major dissociation and gods that was terrifying, so I'll pass on that.
As for where I went... In the case of the deity conversation, it was a temple by a river, on an overcast night. There were other people there ((humanoid, but I dunno if they were human)) doing what seemed to be acts of worship towards statues of the being before the being rose out of the river. It looked like it was made of starlight. It introduced itself as "the God by whom all mortals pass", so I'd assume a God of death, or passage, or some such.
Yeah, no. See that's called "targeting a bird with a broken wing." That's shit cults do... That's cool, I hope your relationship goes well. ( Seriously though, several major Tumblr groups love to target people who have low self-esteem and fill their head with crazy ideas, even if they're the ones who have to destroy their self-esteem first. They're very aware of where they are and know that it's where people go for comfort and opposition to what is perceived as (but actually not) mainstream, because the Tumblr community at-large tries to masquerade as both a force of great social good and as a place of loving, caring acceptance... And even in groups where they actually are, sometimes they're
too accepting... to the point where one issue becomes a few hundred and non-issues become the civil rights case of a century, picked up by the belligerent groups. )
Well, I would certainly hope it's not possession or DID. I don't know that it's even possible for things to get "soulbound" and I'm pretty sure that human spirits nor souls linger on Earth for very long nor return to it by natural means. ( ie, If it isn't an elaborate fantasy, it was done to you on purpose, quite probably for less-than-noble reasons. )
And how would you do that? Souls can't be measured by us. That it caused a major stress episode, however, is quite interesting...
because that seems to fall in line with people who have certain disorders that cause them to disassociate with reality... You might want to get that checked out, just refuse any medication offered. I repeat
unless you are a clear and present danger or anyone else's DO NOT ACCEPT MEDICATION OR SELF-MEDICATE. If you merely suspect that you are though, it is important to get help as soon as you suspect and by a professional. If you've already been medicated, consider what medication you were placed on and whether or not that may be the cause of your current state or at least a contributing factor. If you don't mind, I'd like to try and help you navigate your inner self sometime.
That's A: probably a vision, being seeped in classical metaphor as it was B: Interesting. C: Worth discussing further elsewhere.
Final thought, I find it significant and interesting that the voice supporting the pursuance of what I've been talking about is male and that the voice telling you to place me under suspicion is female. I will leave you [all] to speculate what I mean by this. However, let it be noted I agree with both voices, in this case, that you should pursue and that you should be wary.
And finally, can we move this off the forum please? This isn't really the place for such discussions. If you would like, I could set up an IRC through a VNC and log it. Or if you don't mind a large corporation getting it, we could do it through gmail? ( Heck, even Private Messaging on the forum might work. Or if you and the others prefer it remain public, then a discussion thread.. but I'd rather move this somewhere private, somewhere where it won't be trolled or derailed. And most importantly, we really need to stop the derailing of
this thread. )
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