Already working on that, though for me it's more a matter of gathering up courage to tell people out there in reality about my artsy fartsy tendencies than economy.
INCOMING INSECURE RAMBLING (which you need not concern yourself too much about)
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For some odd and inexplicable reason, i feel EXTREMELY apprehensive about it, even though i kind of want to get it out of my system (because constantly thinking about it is actually kind of stressing me out). I suppose part of the reasoning is that the irrational part of me is saying
HOW WILL PEOPLE REACT? The rational part of me is somewhat underpowered in comparison to the irrational part, even though it does say that me and my bro have VERY similar mindsets, so he'd probably respond in a positive manner. I mean, i think his escapades in web developing were pretty cool, so why wouldn't he think the same of my artings? It's not quite as clear with regards to my parents, even though i recall that my dad seemed pretty proud back when i dabbled in 3D stuff. Some years have passed since then, but surely he can't have changed that much? It's also not a sure bet with my friends over at uni, but they've generally been extremely accepting of my antics, and the response i got from revealing my game in progress was downright overwhelming in its positivity. Would the response be the same for my artings? That's what i'm concerned about. It might be that there's something wrong with me, but i am
terrified of rejection. So much so that merely wondering if i unwittingly have done something minor that would make one of my friends dislike me makes me feel bad.
AND HERE COMES THE IRRATIONAL PART: Since my brain has realized that doing what i already do without changing is acceptable to others, why would i throw myself out into things that could endanger this acceptance? I know i've received positive feedback from the internet, but the unavoidable fact is that it's much harder to tell people something face to face than it is to just write it and press "post". On the internet, i have time to consider my words and responses. When speaking to someone, everything happens MUCH faster, and although i can engage in random talking with my friends, i still fear that i might accidentally say something wrong. I have a feeling that i am much more emotionally unstable than my peers, so they'd probably not really care if i accidentally said or did something dumb, and the worst possible thing that could realistically happen is that they just wouldn't be interested, which objectively isn't a big deal. So why am i so apprehensive about it?
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Irrational reasons. It's just a matter of overcoming them, and this rambling has actually helped me getting closer to that. It also displays my highly developed ability to digress.
(also fondness for mood whiplash)