Tala sighed herself as she watched the helmet obscure his features-but she saw his eyes. Haunted. Restless. Looking past her-past Ligoria, past everything. He was looking to escape. And who was she, oh arrogance, to keep him here?
Nikephoros had tapped into something deeper, there. Pasha was never reluctant to talk about his own past, and maybe that had something to do with it.
A thought came back to her...how he was one foot out of the door. Maybe it would be better that way...he would be alive, at least-and if some distant battlefield claimed his life, she might never know..for years, maybe. Surely better than the deluge that would come from it happening now.
"Sorry...then. I always had a bad sense of timing for these things, as you know.
But...we can talk to each other honestly, Pasha. After this is all over...you can talk to me, and I'll listen. You've beared with me all these years-showed me I don't have to be so alone-and...I owe you much more than that."
She crossed the room, and took his hand in her own. She felt the telltale tremor in his hands-not fear...restlessness.
"...Help me put on my armor. We're going to come through this together. You're not saying goodbye right now...and neither am I."
The cold voice spoke, in a lecturing tone of absolute authority, once again.
This is the life you lead, Tala. No matter how much you don't want to be...you're always going to be alone. The question is, will you drag the man you love down with you? You need to let him go. Before they do it for you. Maybe it will be random fate-one of your enemies-matthew. Or maybe you'll go down, and he'll go down with you...it's only a matter of time.
Her heart answered back-a tiny, fluttering little thing, subsisting on hope instead of logic.
No, no...never...it's not going to be like that...no...
Tala's face only betrayed a hint of the despair she was feeling. They trained her well, after all.