'Suicide is no mercy. Suicide is an end, is giving up. Suicide is selfish, seeking to end one's own pain while giving more to those around you. I've contemplated suicide before, Keeper. When I failed, back in Tailentranced, I was going to simply fly as high as I could and then plummet to my death. I had made such a huge mistake and thought I didn't deserve to live any more. But I realized something: I didn't deserve death either. If I simply killed myself, what would that make of those who lost their lives because of me? Would they have died for nothing?
'I didn't want to live, but I needed to stay alive, to try to fix my mistakes. I had to make sure that they didn't die for nothing. That's why I harp on about other ponies and friendship so much, Keeper. I don't live my life for myself anymore. If you only think about yourself, things get out of focus and loose meaning very quickly. But if you live for others, every little thing takes on a huge meaning.
'I don't want to give up on her, Keeper. She desperately needs a friend, and she won't accept me as one. I fear nopony else is willing to offer to extend friendship to her, either. Dr. Bubbles might be able to, or that new pony, Granite. If they can't get through to her... I don't want to consider it. Suicide is not an option. Unfortunately, execution may be...'